Thursday, June 6, 2019

Why So Quiet?

Ecclesiastes 3:7  A time to be silent and a time to speak. 


This verse is pretty interesting in several ways....

I pray this when praying for others or self for wisdom in how to minister to have a difficult conversation..  Lord give them/me the words to speak and silences to keep.

I pray this just in general - so that I don't mince my words or babble on and on (now that last part doesn't always stop me, lol)

Years ago, I felt the Lord leading me to write this blog in general and to be transparent in my/our walk.  He wanted me to express the ups and downs of the journey He has us on.  Sharing about my health, the financial needs, the destiny He has for us and other things as He led.

I've always been a "wear" everything on my sleeve kind of person.  I'm real. I'm authentic and I definitely say what's on my mind most of the time.  There isn't much people don't know.. (maybe a few private things).

I have learned much about being transparent and sharing things... some good and some not so good.
Maybe the biggest thing is the resolve and intentionality of staying focused on what GOD speaks to us vs what man's opinion is.   Believe me, that's been a big challenge.  I now truly grasp what Bruce Wilkinson wrote in his book "The Dream Giver" - about Border Bullies.   There are people well intentioned or not who get offended or hurt if you don't follow their advice.    For example (not relating to our vision) - I had someone tell me that if I didn't follow their "health protocol" which was hundreds of dollars a month in supplements, that there would be no way I could ever be healed.   I loved the product they offered and use some of them periodically, but I did not feel the Lord leading that nor providing for that.  If God leads, He meets the need!

Back in the late 80's after Ken and I got back from our honeymoon, my step mother said to me.  Something has changed in you two.  You are more mature.   She said "your father and I are here to provide any advice you may want, but it's up to you to decide if its applicable to apply to your situation or circumstances".      She went on to say that we would know the right direction if we were in unity and followed our gut (which now I feel means the Holy Spirit's leading).   That was profound and has stuck with us all these years.    We love advice, but not forced on us. We do seek a multitude of counselors who are involved with us on a regular basis... we ask, listen and then seek the Lord to determine what we ought to do.  And years ago, the Lord showed us that Ken and I being in unity was key.


We have been told that we must be missing God's will and direction because things are so hard. Look at those God used in the Bible - were their lives easy?  Ha!   I truly believe the Lord leads us very specifically and we really can't derail His plan for our lives unless we choose to blatantly be disobedient, but even then, that's questionable. Check these verses out!

“I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2

The LORD of Heaven’s Armies has spoken— who can change his plans? When his hand is raised, who can stop him?” Isaiah 14:27

If you've known us for a while you would know that if we believe we've heard God, we are obedient.  I cannot tell you how many people have made comments to us about our obedience and faith.   Now I don't say that arrogantly....but it's the walk God has placed us on and we so desire to please God and live for God daily.   It doesn't always make sense to us or others... and that's where learning when to speak and when to be silent is essential.   I guess like Joseph sharing his dream with his brothers - we too shared the vision God has for us - maybe prematurely - maybe not - but it has cost us - and for me the greatest cost has been relationships have severed.   I have to choose to trust God and that He has brought the separation for a reason.   But I don't have to like it!

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With all this being said... I haven't blogged for the last two months in obedience.  I feel God has got me/us in a season of just being quiet... and allowing Him to do what He wants to do.   I also feel it's His protection.  Honestly, we are weary, wounded but healing and desperately awaiting His promises too manifest.   Many are!   We are trusting Him day by day and often moment by moment.






We love and appreciate all of you who love us right where we are at.  We are so thankful for the prayer support and those that sow into us financially as led by the Lord.  Those are precious gifts we covet (not the money) but the support of who we are and our walk with the Lord.   Our prayer needs remain the same, health, daily need, car issues and provision to step into destiny...  Thank YOU for helping to hold our arms up during this extended wilderness season.

Blessings - 
I will say that God has blessed us with an increase in people attending our small group.  We have a new couple who are just barely weeks clean from meth addiction and salvation...and others,  this brings us renewed purpose here...to be used to help disciple and mentor and equip to be used mightily by the Lord.  Praise God!   One of them has asked us to baptize them... in Stockton Lake - that's a stretch for me cuz "THERE ARE SNAKES IN LAKES".  LOL!!!    We have 2 people who literally drive back and forth from KC to come to our group too.  That's a huge honor to continue to sow into their lives as well.

I'm also thankful that God has given Ken a small raise and a few more hours at his job.  He got promoted to a manager position.  Every little bit helps.

Oh and another big PRAISE - I received a package in the mail from Amazon a few weeks back.  I had no idea who sent it.  It was some natural sleeping pills called U Dream.  About a week after I got it (I had not taken any yet) a friend asked me if I got her package... so then I felt ok to take the pills.  They are working!  I have tired everything under the sun for years to get sleep.  These pills actually give me 6 solid hours of sleep.     God is good.   So trusting He will provide for me to continue with them.

Our church has asked us to do a "gourmet cooking class".  They are starting a new summer series on food.... so one class is cooking desserts, two weeks later another on grilling and smoking and then two weeks later for us we will do 2 classes on gourmet.  So planning a small feast for about 20 people there...  kind of a stretch of our comfort zone... but excited to do it.

One more prayer request - My sister Lianne Abare was in the Linwood KS F4 Tornado.  She was about a block or two from the very destructive and violent part but did get some serious damage.  A big tree landed on our house, broke through the roof, limbs coming through. She had window
damage, porch & awning damage, ceilings, carpet, etc.  God sent some amazing people the first few days to do some emergency repair/fix... She has NO insurance because it's an older mobile home.  She has probably an additional 10k in repairs that need to be done.   If you feel led, PayPal.me/lianneabare.  We are praising God the storm didn't reach her direct.  She would of been dead being in the mobile home.  Others homes completely flattened.   So sad!

LET US KNOW HOW WE CAN PRAY FOR YOU!

Blessings,
Michele Cole
michele@wantinsight.com

We are thankful and blessed by those of you who support us financially from time to time.  Would you please pray for us to have consistent, regular donors to help fund what God is doing in us and through us?  Any amount is truly a gift from the Lord.  Thank YOU!   

Here are three ways you can give:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744.
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision
God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  





Thursday, April 11, 2019

Trust Fatigue

I haven't posted in a while.....

This article literally confirmed where my heart has been lately....  I hope it encourages you who are waiting on promises too.

http://elijahlist.com/words/display_word.html?ID=21841

"Do You Have Trust Fatigue? Take Heart! You Are Being Positioned"Cameron King, Monroe, Georgia


Recently, I was reading in 1 Samuel 27, where David and his men had left Israel to live in the land of the Philistines. David had grown tired of running from Saul and having to trust the Father day to day for his protection and direction. As I was reading this passage, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, "Many of My people are suffering from trust fatigue." The moment He said this, I received a download and knew exactly what He meant.
Trust Fatigue
People with trust fatigue find themselves, just like David, in the land of the Philistines. They've been given promises, prophetic callings, and have been anointed for tasks they have yet to attain. They entered into the wilderness of preparation. They've learned, or are still learning, instant obedience, trust for provision, leadership abilities, and relational skills—even to the point of honoring those who don't appreciate them, or even desire to have them around.
If you have trust fatigue, then you've probably already seen victory after victory. You've even taken down a few giants. You've won some great battles and you have been faithful. Nevertheless, your victories have come with a price. The continual and never-ending battles have made you tired and fatigued. The victories are sweet, but they appear to come too slowly and have required incredible amounts of effort. When the victory is won and you have escaped with your life, the victory doesn't seem to have moved you toward your goal. It feels like you're still just randomly running around the desert.
You're believing for your destiny. You're trusting for your calling. You've set your faith on your goals and vision. Many of these things you didn't even ask for, but God called you to them. The prophet called you out. You have been walking in faith, but now your faith is tired.
If you have trust fatigue, you don't want to quit the journey. You just want to hit cruise control for a season. You need a break from the desert sun and the Sauls that keep chasing you around the desert. You just want a victory that looks like a step in the direction of where God said He was calling you. You just want to use your gifts, and lean into your talents, and have some fruitful ministry without a crisis. Your trust is tired.
Where Our Faith Ends, His Begins
In response, I asked the Lord, "What do You want me to do about this?" He told me, "Tell My faithful ones who have trust fatigue that My grace is available for them. I will renew and refresh their faith in the moment." He then told me to tell them about the process.
He said, "My timing is always longer than yours. You see, I'm more concerned about the process than the outcome. Just look at David and the difficulty of his preparation. He thought he was ready. Even with his difficult years of training, he still almost lost it all (2 Samuel 12:10). David thought he was ready when he was leading Saul's army, but if he was totally prepared, then he would not have failed in his later years (1 Samuel 18:5 and 1 Chronicles 21:1).
"Tell My people that My desire is for them to be able to keep what I give them. Help them understand that I desire for them to use their faith, sow their faith, and exhaust their faith. I want all the faith they can muster to die because when their faith dies, then that's when My faith begins.
"Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." (John 12:24)
He added, "And when they move in My faith, then the mountains are going to move."
"'Have faith in God,' Jesus answered. 'Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, "Go, throw yourself into the sea," and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in Heaven may forgive you your sins.'" (Mark 11:22-25)
Then He said, "Encourage My people, and tell them the victories that they have won are not random, but I am positioning them to reap their promise, and if they're faithful, then they will see their promises being fulfilled—in smaller measures at first, then at greater degrees as they continue in faithfulness."
My hope and prayer is that if you find yourself in a place of trust fatigue, that the Lord will refresh you and you'll be renewed in the process. Because the Body of Christ and the Kingdom of God needs you to be all that you can be. Go forth in God's faith in Jesus name.
Cameron King
Royal Perspectives
Email: click here
Website: www.royalperspectives.com
Cameron King served as the lead pastor for 13 and a half years at First Assembly of God in Cairo, Georgia and today he is currently the pastor of NewSong Church in Monroe, Georgia where he has served as the lead pastor since 2013. He is the author of "Crazy Kingdom: Exploring the Mysteries of Kingdom Life." He has a knack for taking troubled Churches and transforming them into healthy communities of faith. Cameron and his wife, Rachel, also developed the Makiah Well Project where they build wells for children who need clean drinking water all around the world. He, along with his wife and four daughters, live in Monroe, Georgia.




Blessings,
Michele Cole
michele@wantinsight.com

We are thankful and blessed by those of you who support us financially from time to time.  Would you please pray for us to have consistent, regular donors to help fund what God is doing in us and through us?  Any amount is truly a gift from the Lord.  Thank YOU!   

Here are three ways you can give:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744.
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision
God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  


Saturday, February 9, 2019

Let the Weak Say I am Strong

Let the Weak Say ‘I Am Strong’”
David Wilkerson (1931-2011)

We all are guilty of unbelief at times. Often we face yet another struggle and allow the enemy to discourage us. We might develop feelings of inexplicable loneliness or, experiencing a sense of total inadequacy, we become convinced the Lord does not hear us. A cry erupts from our hearts, “God, where are you? I pray, I fast, I study your Word. Why won’t you deliver me from this?”

We go to the secret place of prayer but we don’t feel like praying. Our souls are dry, empty, exhausted from our struggles, yet we don’t dare accuse the Lord of neglecting us in our condition. So we just weakly approach him in what we perceive as humility. Head down, we say with discouragement, “Lord, I don’t blame you. You’re good and kind to me. I’m the problem; I’ve failed you so much.”

Wait! That is not humility. On the contrary, it is an outright insult to a Father who adopted us with a covenant promise to love and support us throughout our lifetime. When we tell him how bad we are — how weak, empty and useless we are to him — we despise all that he has accomplished in us. This grieves our heavenly Father.

Whenever we become discouraged in our faith, the Holy Spirit will speak to us in no uncertain terms. “Enough of this self-pity. Get up! You are loved, called and chosen, and I have blessed you with my Word.” We must discipline ourselves to recall all that God has brought us through. We are to rejoice, knowing he is pleased with what he has done for us.

You may have been tested time after time. Now the time has come for you to make a decision. God wants faith that endures the ultimate test and he gives you his Word to enable you to triumph. If he commands you to do something, he will supply you with the power and strength to obey: “Let the weak say, ‘I am strong’” (Joel 3:10). “Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might” (Ephesians 6:10).

January 31st I hit the wall!  I was at a point of not being able to cope one second longer with all the difficulties in our lives and circumstances!  Done!  Finished!  Failed! 


I made a decision with God's help to take a sabbatical from everyone and everything.  I decided to stay with friends both in Springfield and in KC where I could be somewhat isolated and in solitude with the Lord for the majority of the time.  I have been getting some wonderful ministry from different places - to overcome all the yuk associated with long term "suffering", we'll call it that for lack of a better term.  


In just 10 days, I have had a major transformation in my heart, mind and soul.   And even in my body.  Headaches are gone, kidney pain gone, I've lost 11 pounds, tmj improving and more...... and last night I slept 7.5 hours before I woke up to a text coming in...but then rolled over and slept 2.5 more hours until the next text came in.  That is the first time in 15 YEARS that I have slept a normal nights sleep.  I am believing this will continue!  I have averaged 2 or less hours most nights for 15 years, but occasionally get up to 5 hours   I feel fantastic today.  My spirit is lifted and my heart is leaping with hope again!   I feel so alive and can't remember the last time I felt this good!!!  I am discovering me!!   God has told me that I won't recognize the new me, but I'll love the new me!   I already am seeing this!!! 


Oh and for those who know me well, know that I have dealt with fear issues for a very long time.  I have had some progress over the years, but just a quick story.   Last Wednesday night staying at a friends in Springfield, Mo.  She was gone for the night.  I was alone.   I had decided to sleep on the couch instead of the basement where I had been staying just because stairs are difficult for me.   As soon as I laid down to sleep, the tornado sirens went off.  No, seriously!  I had NO fear.  I calmly grabbed my purse and computer and went to the basement silently telling God, I guess you wanted me in the basement after all.  Ha!   I clicked on the weather and saw the house I was in, was in the direct path of the tornado.  I checked Facebook and saw that someone 10 minutes down the road had posted they saw a roof being torn off by the storm.  I calmly prayed Psalm 91 and then said God, I leave this in Your capable hands and went to sleep.  Profound Healing!!!!!!!!     And the other thing is I had ministry just the week before about fear about being in basements because of some stuff that happened to me as a child.  And here I am sleeping in a basement with NO Fear!!!!  


GOD IS GOOD!!!!    


Also - on this sabbatical, my car's heater stopped working.  Single digit temperatures! Snow, freezing rain & wet streets.  No heat, no defrost!!   My windshield wiper pump quit - so not able to clean windshield off.   I've had to stop at gas stations often to clean the front and back windshields!  And the car is still leaking oil and will require an oil pan gasket replaced.  I'm pretty well stuck not being able to go places.   All this would normally send me into despair...because of lack of funds to do anything about it.   Well, not this time DEVIL.  I am in God's gracious loving hands and I know HE will take care of this..... that's also a big transformation in my heart, mind and soul.  I actually believe this for the first time in the deepest parts of my being!!  I've always believed in my head - but never completely in my heart!   God is faithful!


If you are in ministry, I highly recommend a regular consistent retreat or sabbatical to help you refresh, reboot & restore.   Ken and I realized we have not had a vacation or time alone away from it all since 2010.  That is far too long!   It is no coincidence in my mind why we are going through this right now.  It is the very essence of what God is calling us to do.  To build a retreat center for pastors, missionaries and lay leaders to come and escape from the daily grind, to be renewed and refreshed!  We have to experience it first - so we can truly have the compassion, empathy and ability to understand their needs.  

If you are going through a difficult season as so many are, take time out and away if possible, press into the Lord and He will bring the restoration and redemption your soul longs for!  

I want to thank all of you who have been praying for us and for my health.   I am so thankful.   I do have a couple prayer requests if you would be so kind.
1.  Pray for provision.  We need to find additional work somehow.  I am looking personally for small business owners to do social media marketing for.  I'm not a pro - but have been able to really increase business in the ones I've done in the past.  I guess I would ask that you pray specifically for "paying" social media jobs - as the past ones I've done ended up being "ministry" and I did not get paid as thought.
2.  Pray for my complete healing, still some spots I need a touch in- I believe it's coming soon.  I am having some new pains because having to drive and especially long distance - right leg and knee.  And I think I twisted my foot on the ice this morning - and it is hurting bad.
3.  Pray for God to provide the miracle for my car (and Ken's too - his is in bad shape just different issues).   We feel God has told us a while back to start praying for new vehicles!  
4.  Pray for the vision to manifest soon.  There are some potential indicators it may.

I'll end with this song by Shannon Wexelberg - all her music has been ministering to my heart... but this one really is good!    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8tjqtJA_xU&feature=share



Love Came for Me 
If You had not come, Tender baby King
And humbly left Your throne to reach someone like me
If You had not walked upon this broken ground
Where on earth would I be now?
If You had not come
If You had not come to seek the sick and lame
To set the captive free, to break the prisoners chains
I’d still be in the dark, grappling for the door
Longing for some way, somehow
Love came for me, Love rescued me
Love called my name, Love took my place
Sweet Lamb of God, I’m bowing down
My eyes have seen
I’m finally free
Love came for me
If You had not come, willing, spotless Lamb
My sin would be too much for You to take me as I am
But, oh, the blood of Christ that washes over me
Flowing from Your hands and feet
Don’t have to worry where I’d be
(repeat chorus)
This manger King
My everything
Love came for me

Blessings,
Michele Cole
michele@wantinsight.com


We are thankful and blessed by those of you who support us financially from time to time.  Would you please pray for us to have consistent, regular donors to help fund what God is doing in us and through us?  Any amount is truly a gift from the Lord.  Thank YOU!   

Here are three ways you can give:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744.
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision
God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.