Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Courage Doesn't Always Roar!!

"The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.  

'The LORD is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore I will hope in him.'"  Lamentation 3:22-24 

It seems as if the Church is in a season of "perseverance" and "enduring".  It may look different for each one of us, but I feel we are being stretched beyond our human ability in some cases.   Our only hope is to stay rooted and grounded in the Word and in an abiding relationship with the Lord.   He is our rock, our peace, our shelter in the storm and our HOPE!    He is faithful even when the storm is raging from all directions.  

I recently had a vision that I was in an open field.  The storm clouds were above me, dark and ominous and threatening to consume me.  My head was tilted and eyes were on the storm.  An Indian Chief came out of nowhere and picked me up and took me to his teepee.  Two Indian women began to minister to me healing.  It took some time, and then I saw myself get up and begin to dance an Indian celebration dance.   I asked the Lord what this meant and I felt He showed me that myself along with many in the body of Christ are experiencing some pretty intense and difficult circumstances that are unrelenting.  It's been nearly impossible to keep our eyes focused on Jesus consistently as the storm has almost consumed us.  Jesus in His compassion and mercy came (the Indian Chief) and will carry me/you to a place of refuge, a place of healing, a place of restoration.  And when that time comes, you will celebrate and dance and rejoice of His goodness.  The tests that will soon bring testimonies will be heard and known around the world and will encourage many to come or return to the Lord.  The harvest fields are ripe!!

I've been praying a new way over the past few weeks - praying God "reveal to heal".   Whatever needs to be brought into the light, to expose the darkness, to expose the works of the enemy, reveal it so that healing can come.  As I prayed this for me personally with the health issues I have, I felt the Lord also brought that forth to pray for our country.  There is so much darkness being exposed.  God allows that to be exposed so that restoration and redemption can come.   The same is true for our different circumstances.  God's answers are always healing and redemptive.  When He brings things to light is so we can have the wisdom to know how to pray and overcome.   We need to be on our faces praying for God's healing touch on our land!!!! 

What God has "finally" revealed to me, why I am going through so much pain in my body and sleepless nights is because of "word curses" "verbal attacks".   The stress of those coming at me has taken a toll.  Part of the word curses were from myself.  And some from others in whom He is revealing.  I have dealt with a spirit
of self hatred for a very long time.  It came from situations in my childhood and adult life where I was "blamed" for atrocities against me by another person.  It was reinforced over the years and so it became a rut/an unhealthy thought pattern.   Recently the Lord showed me that self hatred has turned into self abandonment.   What that has meant is that I have unintentionally chosen to abandon myself, my voice, my safety and have turned inwards into more word curses.  I have repeatedly said to the Lord if you don't heal me than take me.  If you don't do something about this Lord, then what's the point of living.    Now, I know quite a few people have shared these very words with me about their circumstances, so I don't put fault or condemnation on myself or others.  When you are at the end of your rope, you become desperate for answers, desperate for reprieve and when the answers don't come, hopelessness goes deeper and deeper into your spirit.  It's a vicious cycle. 

So recently I was talking with a friend and sharing with her that I am beyond weary of the pain, the torment, panic attacks and sleepless nights.  I was in a despair cycle and honestly looking for a way out.   No I'm not suicidal, but I have been on that slippery slope.  Thankfully I have beautiful friends and the Lord who loves me and talks me off of those cliffs.    One thing this friend said to me -  "I don't blame you. But please hang on as long as you can!  I know how strong in the Lord and the power of His might you are!  You have been such a great example to me of perseverance and enduring faith that does not quit!"   Another friend said this to me - " Your endurance is contagious and your perseverance is inspiring to me".    When I hear something two or more times, I often feel it's God.   I feel the Lord is speaking to me/to you possibly - don't give up.  He is with us and He will bring us through into victory. 

But he who endures to the end will be saved. Matthew 24:13 

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow."  Mary Anne Radmacher

As long as we wake up and have breath, the Lord can still use us despite the circumstances we face.    

If you are going through some intense circumstances, I want to pray for you.  Please email me or call me anytime!!   We need each other!   The Bible is clear that we are to praying for "saints" everywhere at all times.  It's your prayers that have kept me in the game.   

Praise Reports -
Ken has been working for a professional painting company here.  It is much physical labor - lots of different types log homes, indoor/outdoor, even labs wearing a respirator and high security. 
Me - I've got a part time job - working from home - for an insurance agent in KC.   Thankful - challenging to learn new software - but comfortable with the rest of it.  
Montana - Loving Montana!! Love the people, love our new church, love the town.  Love the views.  We are HOME!!!  Lots of divine connections happening and some potential steps for destiny.... 

Prayer Requests - 
Ken - stamina.  He works in the heat - yes it's hot here 90+ degrees- and we have no air conditioning....  the nights are cool in the 50's.   
Me - Healing to manifest!! Sleep to manifest!!  It is taking a huge toll on me in every way.  Please pray for continued endurance until healing comes. 
Car - we desperately need another SUV - which might end up replacing one we have soon.. ours is leaking more and more oil, no heat or defrost - will need by winter (that can be any time now) and now has an odd noise when steering.  ugh! 

We love you and are thankful for you!!    

Ken & Michele Cole
...God's love and care is amazing!!

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840  
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole.  We also have Venmo & CashApp

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.