Wednesday, March 10, 2021

Where Are YOU Lord?

God, where are YOU?  Words from a sleep deprived person.....

I have nothing left in me.  There is no hope for the promises.  Are they really yes and amen?  Do you hear the prayers of many saints and me asking for healing, for freedom from pain and sleep deprivation?  Do you know what sleep deprivation does to a person's emotions, the torment, the anxiety, the panic attacks?  Do you Lord?  Doesn't Your Word say you give sleep to Your Beloved?  You've called me that for years...and yet no sleep comes, 17 years of little to NO sleep.  What should I believe in this case, I don't know anymore?  You promise healing in Your Word.  It's part of the full package of salvation (sozo - healing of mind, body and soul) and yet for 37 years one thing after another.  I cry out to you.  Others pray on my behalf.  I've lost so many friends over this.  People get tired of praying for me.  Who can blame them.  I get tired of asking You and asking others to pray.  What's the point?   You say you honor the faith of others but where's the proof of that?  It's affecting my ability to work, function, hope, believe, have any motivation, desire for anything?  I'm thankful my boss is understanding, but it's not fair to him. It seems all I do is apologize to him for not being able to work fully.   He's a great guy and he has his own health issues and relies on me.  I pray for him.. and yet he still suffers.  

I have a good friend who has gone through decades of intense pain - fortunately she sleeps.  But her pain levels have been ridiculous.  She has battled cancer  over the past year or two and thought she overcame and now she is battling it again and the doctors are only giving her months to live.   She doesn't want to talk to anyone. I don't know what she is feeling.  I can't console her.  I pray for her often  and I know many others are too.  And yet, no relief.  She's trusted you for her healing and yet it doesn't come.  Maybe in heaven...and I long for that day soon IF You won't heal her here on earth.  I cry out often for her.  What does that really do?  

I have a friend who is in miserable shape because she can't eat much.  Very few calories and not the ones that will allow her to put weight back on. She's desperate.  She's in my prayers day and night for years now.  She is so thankful for my prayers and the encouraging words You give me for her, yet no relief in sight.  Desperate for her healing to manifest.  

I could go on and on for ALL those I am praying for - that I feel You've called me to pray for.  There are too many to list.  Where are you Lord?? 

Many are believing You for the promise You have spoken to them and what you say in Your Word... and yet will we ever see them manifest "in the land of the living"?   Will we God?   

You've made my brain to pick up on patterns - and I see sooooooooooo many suffering or contending for something that only YOU can do!!   Some are trusting YOU for healing of their body, for finances for everyday life, for reconciliation of relationships, for prodigals and more.  ONLY YOU LORD!   And the million dollar question - the question I'd be wealthy if only I knew the answer is "Where are you LORD?  Why are you not setting the captives free from whatever they need set free from?  

What about the children?  The poor children that are taken to satisfy the evil wicked people in this dark ugly world.  What about the sex trafficking victims.  The numbers are staggering of how many kids and women are taken for things too disgusting to mention?  What about all the evil - the racism that continues to be fueled by the left agenda.  What about the hate? The LGBTQ agenda.  The small percentage of people are influencing the masses?    Where are You? 


My prayer for me - and others!!

Psalm 142

A maskil of David. When he was in the cave. A prayer.

I cry aloud to the Lord;

    I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.

I pour out before him my complaint;

    before him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me,

    it is you who watch over my way.

In the path where I walk

    people have hidden a snare for me.

Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;

    no one is concerned for me.

I have no refuge;

    no one cares for my life.

I cry to you, Lord;

    I say, “You are my refuge,

    my portion in the land of the living.”

Listen to my cry,

    for I am in desperate need;

rescue me from those who pursue me,

    for they are too strong for me.

Set me free from my prison,

    that I may praise your name.

Then the righteous will gather about me

    because of your goodness to me.


Where are you Lord? Come to our rescue!  Deliver Your people from these afflictions.  Manifest Your promises?  Our hope is in You - but where are You? 


God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? Numbers 23:19 

Just so you know - this is sleep deprivation talking?  When I get 5 hours once in a great moon, I cope, my spirits are better, my faith is strong, etc.    I am thankful for those rare nights! 

It's always darkest before dawn..... 

Prayer Requests.

Ken is painting - and it's taking a toll on him physically. He's so wiped out coming home and has little energy for much.  Please pray for his stamina, energy and endurance..   He is even having some sleep changes.  He's not getting as much as he's used too.  

Ministry - prayer for more opportunities as that does lift our spirits and give us purpose.  And for provision for the vision - we are so ready to move into what God has called us too.  

I'm not going to ask for me - because it's the same ole same ole. If you feel led to pray, great.  But if you do only please pray in the spirit and ask God's will be done.  I don't want conflicting prayers.  

We have need for a car.  Ken's car is really on it's last leg.  We have a friend from church who has offered us their 2012 Subaru - for only $3000.... and is holding it for us for a short while.  We just don't have the resources.  So maybe not God's will?? We pray and ask God to make it clear.  

Thank you for your friendship and care and prayers even if God isn't answering them!

If we can pray for you please feel free to reach out.  We are so thankful for those that continue to pray for us.   You have no idea how much that touches my heart and demonstrates God's love!  Thank YOU!

Ken & Michele Cole
michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840  
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole.  We also have Venmo & CashApp

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision
God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  



Thursday, February 11, 2021

I AM!


God said to Moses, I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’ Exodus 3:14  

The other day in my quiet time.  I was crying.  I was crying out pleading with the Lord on many subjects!  

Before I could just sit and intentionally listen for His response to my never ending questions...   I immediately heard this resounding voice speak to me, "I AM"!   


It was straight to the point!  

It was firm and yet tender. 

It was commanding but gentle. 

It was simple but yet profound.  

It was kind and yet convicting.  

Most of all, it was EFFECTIVE!  

An excerpt taken from www.chicagobible.org - 

The Hebrew words in Exodus 3:14 for “I AM THAT I AM” are ehyeh asher ehyeh which should more accurately be translated “I will be what I will be” or as Rotherham translates it, “I will become whatsoever I may become.”  This expression in Exodus 3:14 is an idiom, an expression that has a meaning that cannot be understood by the individual words.  So, what does “I AM THAT I AM” mean?

By using the translation “I will become whatsoever I may become,” we see the relationship of this phrase to Yahweh – “He who becometh.”  They both use the word “become.” The use of ehyeh asher ehyeh in Exodus 3:14 was God’s way of assuring and pledging to Moses and Israel that God would become whatever they needed Him to become.   

This promise found in the name of God can be extended to the world of mankind. God will become what they need Him to become – an architect for the plan of salvation that will bring them back into harmony with Him.  In the case of the heavenly church, God will be all we need to make our calling and election sure.

--

Well, that sums it up for me, how about you?  What do you need God to become for you?

Healer - Deliverer - Provider - Restorer - Father - Husband - Spouse -  Comforter - Counselor - Leader - Life Source - You pick! 


That answer "I AM" is all encompassing - all sufficient and all that is needed!  

There are so many beautiful souls that are hurting, lost and broken. Some fellow believers who have been through an intense season of long suffering in one way or another.  There are those that don't know the Lord (even some that do)  that are being led further and further from the Truth.   It's time for the Church to come out of it's slumber and BECOME who God designed us to be.  And yet, there are hinderances or things keeping us from that.   We need God to be the Great I AM and release us from all that keeps us from this!  


                              What do you need God to become for YOU?

                              What will it take for YOU to step fully into His call on your life? 

                              

Prayer and Praise! 

Ken is still painting and thankful that there has been close to full time work (indoors).  We have had a mild winter up until February, when it all seemed to hit at once.  We've had probably a foot of snow with another 3-6" coming over the next couple days.. our temps have been decent until now too...we are going to see -20 to -30 wind chills today with actual temps in the - digits.  With temps this low, Ken uses my car since his doesn't have heat or defrost AT all.  Please pray for God to provide a reliable AWD vehicle for Ken (with heat & defrost & snow tires)    Pray for him as he travels all over the valley for safety on the slick roads.  Pray for his endurance.  It's a lot of physical labor up and down ladders.   He's able but he's not wired for this.    

Michele - Same ole, same ole - prayer for healing please.  I have some decent days but pain levels are still mostly unbearable.  Sleep is hit or miss -and sometimes not at all which takes a huge toll on me.  I am thankful for my boss who provides great grace when I am hitting the wall.   I am working part time - 25-30 hours a week remotely for an insurance agent in KC.  Funny I come to Montana to find work in KC.  But it's a good fit overall.  Please pray for the stamina and mental energy as it can be exhausting especially with pain and limited sleep.  

Ministry - We are still contending and believing God for the provision to build the vision.  We are seeing amazing connections with others with similar visions and/or people who want to come alongside us and be part of this.  I love it!  We are continuing to have people for meals and minister to people.  We have become counsel for a few people here which is rewarding.  Please pray for provision to come!   Please pray for continued opportunities to minister and bless others.  


If we can pray for you please feel free to reach out.  We are so thankful for those that continue to pray for us.   You have no idea how much that touches my heart and demonstrates God's love!  Thank YOU!

Ken & Michele Cole
...God's love and care is amazing!! 
michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840  
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole.  We also have Venmo & CashApp

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision
God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 
We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 
In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.