Courage Doesn't Always Roar!!

"The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.  

'The LORD is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore I will hope in him.'"  Lamentation 3:22-24 

It seems as if the Church is in a season of "perseverance" and "enduring".  It may look different for each one of us, but I feel we are being stretched beyond our human ability in some cases.   Our only hope is to stay rooted and grounded in the Word and in an abiding relationship with the Lord.   He is our rock, our peace, our shelter in the storm and our HOPE!    He is faithful even when the storm is raging from all directions.  

I recently had a vision that I was in an open field.  The storm clouds were above me, dark and ominous and threatening to consume me.  My head was tilted and eyes were on the storm.  An Indian Chief came out of nowhere and picked me up and took me to his teepee.  Two Indian women began to minister to me healing.  It took some time, and then I saw myself get up and begin to dance an Indian celebration dance.   I asked the Lord what this meant and I felt He showed me that myself along with many in the body of Christ are experiencing some pretty intense and difficult circumstances that are unrelenting.  It's been nearly impossible to keep our eyes focused on Jesus consistently as the storm has almost consumed us.  Jesus in His compassion and mercy came (the Indian Chief) and will carry me/you to a place of refuge, a place of healing, a place of restoration.  And when that time comes, you will celebrate and dance and rejoice of His goodness.  The tests that will soon bring testimonies will be heard and known around the world and will encourage many to come or return to the Lord.  The harvest fields are ripe!!

I've been praying a new way over the past few weeks - praying God "reveal to heal".   Whatever needs to be brought into the light, to expose the darkness, to expose the works of the enemy, reveal it so that healing can come.  As I prayed this for me personally with the health issues I have, I felt the Lord also brought that forth to pray for our country.  There is so much darkness being exposed.  God allows that to be exposed so that restoration and redemption can come.   The same is true for our different circumstances.  God's answers are always healing and redemptive.  When He brings things to light is so we can have the wisdom to know how to pray and overcome.   We need to be on our faces praying for God's healing touch on our land!!!! 

What God has "finally" revealed to me, why I am going through so much pain in my body and sleepless nights is because of "word curses" "verbal attacks".   The stress of those coming at me has taken a toll.  Part of the word curses were from myself.  And some from others in whom He is revealing.  I have dealt with a spirit

of self hatred for a very long time.  It came from situations in my childhood and adult life where I was "blamed" for atrocities against me by another person.  It was reinforced over the years and so it became a rut/an unhealthy thought pattern.   Recently the Lord showed me that self hatred has turned into self abandonment.   What that has meant is that I have unintentionally chosen to abandon myself, my voice, my safety and have turned inwards into more word curses.  I have repeatedly said to the Lord if you don't heal me than take me.  If you don't do something about this Lord, then what's the point of living.    Now, I know quite a few people have shared these very words with me about their circumstances, so I don't put fault or condemnation on myself or others.  When you are at the end of your rope, you become desperate for answers, desperate for reprieve and when the answers don't come, hopelessness goes deeper and deeper into your spirit.  It's a vicious cycle. 

So recently I was talking with a friend and sharing with her that I am beyond weary of the pain, the torment, panic attacks and sleepless nights.  I was in a despair cycle and honestly looking for a way out.   No I'm not suicidal, but I have been on that slippery slope.  Thankfully I have beautiful friends and the Lord who loves me and talks me off of those cliffs.    One thing this friend said to me -  "I don't blame you. But please hang on as long as you can!  I know how strong in the Lord and the power of His might you are!  You have been such a great example to me of perseverance and enduring faith that does not quit!"   Another friend said this to me - " Your endurance is contagious and your perseverance is inspiring to me".    When I hear something two or more times, I often feel it's God.   I feel the Lord is speaking to me/to you possibly - don't give up.  He is with us and He will bring us through into victory. 

But he who endures to the end will be saved. Matthew 24:13 

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow."  Mary Anne Radmacher

As long as we wake up and have breath, the Lord can still use us despite the circumstances we face.    

If you are going through some intense circumstances, I want to pray for you.  Please email me or call me anytime!!   We need each other!   The Bible is clear that we are to praying for "saints" everywhere at all times.  It's your prayers that have kept me in the game.   

Praise Reports - 

Ken has been working for a professional painting company here.  It is much physical labor - lots of different types log homes, indoor/outdoor, even labs wearing a respirator and high security. 

Me - I've got a part time job - working from home - for an insurance agent in KC.   Thankful - challenging to learn new software - but comfortable with the rest of it.  

Montana - Loving Montana!! Love the people, love our new church, love the town.  Love the views.  We are HOME!!!  Lots of divine connections happening and some potential steps for destiny.... 

Prayer Requests - 

Ken - stamina.  He works in the heat - yes it's hot here 90+ degrees- and we have no air conditioning....  the nights are cool in the 50's.   

Me - Healing to manifest!! Sleep to manifest!!  It is taking a huge toll on me in every way.  Please pray for continued endurance until healing comes. 

Car - we desperately need another SUV - which might end up replacing one we have soon.. ours is leaking more and more oil, no heat or defrost - will need by winter (that can be any time now) and now has an odd noise when steering.  ugh! 

We love you and are thankful for you!!    

Ken & Michele Cole

...God's love and care is amazing!! 

michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:

     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840  

     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole.  We also have Venmo & CashApp

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 1982, Hamilton, MT 59840

     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.

     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212

     Phone 913 310 0279

     www.thesignatry,com

     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.

Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  

Are YOU the One?

Photo credit - Unsplash

11 Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. 12 As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy[a] met him. They stood at a distance 13 and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!”

14 When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed.

15 One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. 16 He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him—and he was a Samaritan.

17 Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? 18 Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” 19 Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.” Luke 11:17-19 

What does this passage speak to you?  Is there something that you are awaiting God's answer to prayer?  

Years ago, at a prophetic meeting, a lady I didn't know other than her name was there.  She stood up and shared a dream she had about me.  She dreamed that I had the gift of healing and miracles.  With that spoken word, something rose up inside me and I became consumed (in a good way) in learning and growing in the healing gift.  I took it seriously and was hungry for everything I could get my hands on.  I read book after book - sometimes 1 or more a week on healing, deliverance, miracles - some from the great ones that went before us, Smith Wigglesworth, John Wimber, Kathryn Kuhlman and others.   The book that really spoke to me most was the Bible.  Reading primarily the gospels, the book of Acts and a few others in the New Testament.   

Everywhere Jesus went, He healed.  The only place He had a hard time was in his home town.  They knew Him, they grew up with Him so they just couldn't believe.  Jesus had compassion and mercy on all that came to Him.   He healed everyone that came to Him.  In most cases, healing was instant.  Did you notice that those He healed, were filled with joy and couldn't wait to share their testimony and give God the glory....  all but the 9 lepers highlighted in passage above.  Are you the 1? 

That passage about the lepers, I read many many times years ago and still even currently.  It spoke to me when I first read it.  Our pastor just preached on Gratitude and this scripture and so I felt it was a good topic for my blog.  The words of that passage leapt of the page.  ONLY ONE Leper came back and gave thanks to God for his healing.  Tragic and sad really.   I remember praying a prayer like this after first reading it- Lord, I want to be that ONE!  I want to be the ONE who comes back and gives you thanks and praise all my days for the healing you do in my life.  I want to always thank and praise you for the blessings you have given me.  I prayed that prayer with very little understanding but with the right heart. 

Over the past five years - in our extended wilderness - an attitude of gratitude has sprung forth.  My prayer above was answered.  Though quite difficult most days, dealing with chronic health issues, new symptoms popping up out of nowhere and challenging finances cause us to be utterly dependent on God for our everyday provision and care.  When someone blesses you with a bag full of fresh garden vegetables...... you praise God and thank Him for His provision.   When you are able to get a "utility credit" to cover your electric bill for a month or two, you thank God for the favor and the blessing of provision.   And for me especially with my health..... In my last blog, I shared how a pain in my right side/back came on out of the blue - in June.   I had mentioned that I immediately felt compelled  to change my eating as a matter of life or death.  I did as I felt led and God's grace has been so amazing to give me such a desire to eat healthy. (Ken too).  I have not had a bite of dessert or sweet.  This might freak you out - but Ken and I probably ate 1-2# of butter a week in all that we cook for us and others.  We have had less than a half stick in the past 6 weeks  Seriously!!!  I haven't touched gluten.  Been making things with almond flour, flax seed and homemade applesauce (no sugar added) and eating that daily.  Even no dairy except a few crumbles of cheese on a salad.   Why am I telling you this?  Well, first obedience is what God rewards. God taught Ken and I early on in our walk, the importance of obedience (Deut 28).   Many think I am off my rocker, because I won't go see a doctor.   I trust that if God wants me to see a doctor, He would speak to my heart and to Ken's.   I put my trust in doctors for too long - not that they are bad....but they became an idol unknowingly.  I am on the opposite end of the pendulum at this time...and am trusting God as He is leading me daily.  It is not easy at times, but I know the outcome will be beautiful!  Which leads right into the next paragraph.  

I want to share a vision I had about a month ago.  But first - a little set up.   I have been asking God for deliverance from fear forEVER!  I've done all I know how to do, but it truly is  up to God to bring the healing.  He prompted me to email an old friend I hadn't talked to in years and explain the pain in my side/back.  She asked the Lord what she was to do and she sent me some information on how much "chronic unexplained pain and illness" is brought on by FEAR!!!!!   That was such a confirmation.  Fear was a big deal and the enemy was trying to take me out.   He almost did.....BUT GOD SUSTAINED ME!

Psalm 41:13 The LORD sustains them on their sickbed and restores them from their bed of illness.

 VISION - I had watched a testimony of healing on Facebook..and in it the lady used the words "Lord, reveal what you want to heal".   For some reason, that spoke to me to pray.   I immediately went into a vision (with eyes closed and fingers on keyboard) I journaled for 22 minutes.  The Lord took me back to a time when I was younger where I had been violently violated (I knew I had multiple trauma and by who - but I didn't have any details.  I completely blocked out my childhood).   The scenes in the vision were graphic and extremely painful to experience and I heard and saw myself crying out for Jesus and for help to protect me.   I was angry, hurt, full of shame, fear, condemnation and hatred for myself.  That was the open door. the enemy used to begin to wreak havoc in my life and my health.  In the vision, the Lord showed me a vow I had made and I immediately repented of it.  (I've done tons of inner healing ministry over the years and repented of unknown vows) However, this one was the key to unlock and set me free from fear.  The remainder of the vision, the Lord spoke to me and told me that every ounce of fear He was removing - from every cell of my being, every memory.  All trauma erased.  He spoke His peace and love into me.   He told me that I would know this was a done deal - that FEAR would be no longer just by the fact that I would begin to sleep better starting with that night.  I slept 6 hrs first night, 7 hrs, then 9 hours.   I am still a month later getting great sleep.  Maybe just a night or two that haven't been perfect.   Every morning, I wake up and I thank GOD for the healing!  I thank GOD for the sleep.  I thank GOD that He did what He said He would do!!  Oh and I haven't had a headache either for the past 4 weeks.  I thank GOD for that daily too!   He is so kind!!!   I still have a bunch of symptoms going on - the pain in my back/right side and others....  I asked the Lord, why? Why do I still have

Photo Credit Amy Coote

these pains.  What I sense Him telling me is that - He is using this time to build my confidence that His WORD is living, active and powerful and that when the complete healing comes, it will be permanent.  If we don't fill ourselves up after healing comes, we can lose it. In the past I would believe, then pray help me with my unbelief because I wasn't standing firm.  I was more wobbly in my confidence and trust in God.   Now,  I can see the ground I've been taking back and am able to take thoughts captive and release them quickly.  I am able to STAND firm.   When all you have left to do is STAND, you STAND and watch the salvation of the Lord.  The battle is His!!! This is a good song - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1Zd7gGS00g.  
FEAR IS GONE!!! 

When the  complete healing comes, I will be the ONE who praises HIM all my days!  I am already in that posture, confessing His promises over my health and thanking HIM for already making provision for the healing.  He is worthy of ALL praise - even without the answered prayer.  There is so much to be thankful for and I am so glad that my heart has turned the corner and am able to thank HIM for everything.  

Will you be the ONE?   

Praise Report
My last blog post got sent to Elijah List by a friend and they published it...and then Charisma Magazine picked it up yesterday out of the blue and published it on their website.  Both of these have huge followings and exposure. Wow God!!!!  I am getting quite a few emails from people who have read it and are greatly encouraged.  It's so fun!!!  

We are still believing and thanking GOD in advance for the provision to step into destiny.  He has been really ramping up some encouraging words to us directly and through others.

We are hosting 2 gourmet cooking classes for our church in August - pray for the grace on that because I am not used to cooking for 20.   I prefer groups of 4-6.  Intimate and cozy.  

LET US KNOW HOW WE CAN PRAY FOR YOU! 

Blessings,

Michele Cole

michele@wantinsight.com

We are thankful and blessed by those of you who support us financially from time to time.  Would you please pray for us to have consistent, regular donors to help fund what God is doing in us and through us?  Any amount is truly a gift from the Lord.  Thank YOU!   

Here are three ways you can give:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744.
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through PayPal.Me/micheleacole

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.

Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  

A Change of Perspective

Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.  Colossians 3:2 

Perspective:  a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view.

Have you ever had a situation in your life that no matter what you did, nothing seemed to change?  The circumstances are unrelenting difficult and there is absolutely nothing you can do to change them?  What happens to your thought life when you are stuck in this rut?  If you're anything like me, you can't seem to focus on anything but the need.  It's  not really a joyful or fun place to be.  Sometimes you just need a good Holy Spirit kick in the pants to get you back on track.  

I am going to be more thankful and less worried about provision, lack of sleep, etc.  
I am going to be more thankful and trust that God is ALWAYS faithful.
I am going to be more thankful and appreciative of what God is doing now through us.
I am going to be more thankful and live in the moment instead of what's to come. 

I am THANKFUL for friends like YOU - who encourage and pray for us!
I am THANKFUL for the Lord's kindness and mercy!
I am THANKFUL for a roof over my head and food on the table!
I am THANKFUL for those of you who send financial support from time to time. 
I am THANKFUL for God's sustaining my health.  It could be worse!
I am THANKFUL for being able to WORSHIP AND PRAISE GOD! 

This past week, we had a car repair that needed to get done.  Instead of freaking out on how in the world we would take care of it, I simply entered into a time of thanksgiving and praise that God would provide.   And... He did!  He showed up as He always does.    I don't know why I worry about this... I guess because I'm weary of not having the ability to just pay for something.  I guess because when we had good paying jobs, we may have taken it for granted?  It's very wearying to have to rely on "God" for every need, and our flesh would prefer a job that provides sufficient income....but those doors don't seem to open.  The only door that is open is God's faithfulness to provide ALL our needs.   I find it ironic that when I first got saved and learned about having a life verse..... I chose.......

Philippians 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.

Little did I know that I would be walking this verse out - needing to, having to and getting to trust God would provide ALL our needs!!!  I always say, be careful what you pray for.  LOL!!

My prayer is that I simply can change my perspective by going before the Lord with PRAISE and THANKSGIVING and KNOWING that HE will provide whatever the need is instead of going into fear or worry.  I believe, help my unbelief Lord! Mark 9:24. 

If there is anything I've learned in these past 5+ years of the wilderness season we've been in, is that God is FAITHFUL, even when we are not.  He loves when we enter into Praise &

Thanksgiving because He is worthy of all Praise!!   He loves when we come to Him with faith like a child and trust that He is a good daddy.  This has been a hard concept for me to grasp..... my head knows it, but getting it into my heart is challenging because of growing up with an absentee father.  So my perspective of the Father above has been skewed.   

Maybe the reason He hasn't changed our circumstances (yet) is because He wants to change our hearts to be in line with who He is, what His heart is for us?   In order to fully walk into and be prepared for the calling He has on us - to be a refuge for those in need, we need to know how to receive His provision.   I remember years ago, the Lord speaking to me.  He said "you have learned how to give well, now I want you to learn how to receive well."    And now today, He is telling me, "well done, my good and faithful servant.  You have passed the test."  Praise GOD!   

Today on Facebook Al Mack wrote this:
"I thought it was darkness trying to overtake me. But it was your shadow."

It's easy to misinterpret things according to our expectations. For that reason (if no other), we must steward our expectations carefully.

Perspective is so valuable.

I love this because it's confirming that when others think we are missing the boat somehow, it may be God all along "overshadowing" us.   This has been my sense for sometime.  It's God that opens and closes doors!  

So today, especially, but every day - enter His gates with THANKSGIVING and His courts with PRAISE and your entire perspective will instantly be changed!  

I'll end with a fun testimony! 

GOD STORY: 

Earlier this month a friend of ours was heading to Africa for a missions trip. I told him we would be praying for him. Just before he left, I got a word of knowledge for him. 

I just had a vision of you praying over a woman. You're holding her hands like her hands are out in front in receiving position. Not inappropriate. And as you hold her hands I see years of heartbreak in her life healed. I sense you're to pray a father's blessing over her that will speak volumes. She's short and a tad heavy. Maybe 40's -50's in age. Her hair is pulled back. Kind of homely looking. But her countenance will change from oppressed to life and she will have a big smile before you get done praying. Not sure but hear name Carletta?? 

I just heard breaker anointing. Just your presence and prayer will cause much breakthrough
--------

Here's his response 2 weeks later when he arrived home from Africa!! 

I met Carletta . . . .it was profound to say the least . . . Jesus healed a broken heart!
Her name is Corlett . . .but her husband calls her Corletta as an affection term, thats why the Lord called her by the same name to show his affection for her!

Blessings,

Ken & Michele Cole
ken@wantinsight.com, michele@wantinsight.com

We are thankful and blessed by those of you who support us financially from time to time.  Would you please pray for us to have consistent, regular donors to help fund what God is doing in us and through us?  Any amount is truly a gift from the Lord.  Thank YOU!   

Here are three ways you can give:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:
     Ken & Michele Cole, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744.
     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744
     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.
     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212
     Phone 913 310 0279
     www.thesignatry,com
     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.

Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.