Pushing Out Into Deep Water!

What if the Lord asked you to "push out into deep waters".  

What would that mean to you?  What would be your response?  Would you trust & obey?   Would you be in expectation?  

Luke 5:1-11 The Message 

Push Out into Deep Water

1-3Once when he was standing on the shore of Lake Gennesaret, the crowd was pushing in on him to better hear the Word of God. He noticed two boats tied up. The fishermen had just left them and were out scrubbing their nets. He climbed into the boat that was Simon’s and asked him to put out a little from the shore. Sitting there, using the boat for a pulpit, he taught the crowd.

4When he finished teaching, he said to Simon, “Push out into deep water and let your nets out for a catch.”

5-7Simon said, “Master, we’ve been fishing hard all night and haven’t caught even a minnow. But if you say so, I’ll let out the nets.” It was no sooner said than done—a huge haul of fish, straining the nets past capacity. They waved to their partners in the other boat to come help them. They filled both boats, nearly swamping them with the catch.

8-10Simon Peter, when he saw it, fell to his knees before Jesus. “Master, leave. I’m a sinner and can’t handle this holiness. Leave me to myself.” When they pulled in that catch of fish, awe overwhelmed Simon and everyone with him. It was the same with James and John, Zebedee’s sons, coworkers with Simon.

10-11Jesus said to Simon, “There is nothing to fear. From now on you’ll be fishing for men and women.” They pulled their boats up on the beach, left them, nets and all, and followed him.

Before I follow up on this passage, I want to share what happened this weekend.  It was such a powerful supernatural experience that literally took my breath away.  

We had plans to dog sit for a local friend.  We had it down on the calendar for 5/27-5/30.  We also had scheduled a friend to come for a meal on Sunday, 5/27.  But God had different plans.   On Saturday 5/19, our friends called and asked if they could bring their dog over at 8am the next day.  I said isn't that a week early?  They said, nope its this week.  We agreed it would be ok, but thought how odd.  Ken and I both heard them say Memorial Day weekend, but in looking back to the text they did say the 20th.  

On Sunday 5/20, our friend who we had scheduled for dinner on 5/27 texted and said that he would see us later for a meal.  I thought, seriously, does he think it's the 20th or what?  I texted back and told him it was fine and that we would enjoy seeing him soon.  But in looking back at texts, the date we scheduled WAS Sunday, 5/27, not 5/20.  Clearly, God was rearranging our schedule but why?  In the middle of the week, we were watching an old black & white movie and the guy was circling a date on a calendar.  Can you guess the date??  Of course, it was May 27th.  Ok!  God has our attention!!!

Well, Sunday 5/27 comes!  All day long we are in great anticipation....... once in a while we attend a service in Clinton, MO - it's excellent worship, prayer & ministry.  So we decided to go.  We were planning on going on the 20th but since we were dog sitting, decided not to.   During the worship time, the Lord impressed on me that they were going to pray over us.  That is not a regular thing they do for people.  They have, but it's typically pray for individuals as the Lord leads.  The teaching was going on and then about 30 minutes into it, the man who facilitates the meeting got up and took over the meeting (respectfully).  He looked at us and said we want to pray for you two tonight and invited us to the front.   He had everyone gather around us.  There is so much I would love to share but for the sake of length, I want to share the highlight of WHY God changed ours and 3 others entire calendars for us to be at this place on this night!!!! 

The man got on his hands and knees and started praying for us and honoring us (I can't go into detail BUT know this was a big deal) and said that he had a prophetic tongue he wanted to speak over us.  He said he had never spoke in this tongue before but knew God had wanted it shared tonight.  So he opened his mouth and a Native Indian dialect came out.  It was authoritative and powerful.  I had my eyes closed and I began to weep as a vision came into view.  I saw Ken and I standing at the edge of our "promised land" and a iron clad gate before us.  I saw an Indian Chief open the gates - wide open and then he said "Welcome to your new land"  "This is your land now."   

The man who was praying in tongues over us said that the Lord showed him that he saw the Lord striking the gates and they opened and it came from Isaiah 45.  

 Isaiah 45 this is what the Lord says to his anointed,

    to Cyrus, whose right hand I take hold of

to subdue nations before him

    and to strip kings of their armor,

to open doors before him

    so that gates will not be shut:

2 

I will go before you

    and will level the mountains[a];

I will break down gates of bronze    and cut through bars of iron.

3 

I will give you hidden treasures,

    riches stored in secret places,

so that you may know that I am the Lord,

    the God of Israel, who summons you by name.

4 

For the sake of Jacob my servant,

    of Israel my chosen,

I summon you by name

    and bestow on you a title of honor,

Wow! Wow! Wow!  Ken heard "mountain warrior" as well during the tongue.   What this man didn't know was that God had me in Isaiah 45 ALL last year when He was speaking to me about our move to the promise land.....destiny!  The interpretation the Lord has been giving me from this prophetic tongue is confirming so much!  Wow!!!

So, back to Luke 5.  When I was reading this passage, the Lord highlighted all that I bolded above.  He said that He would soon be asking us to "push out into deep waters".  As soon as I heard that, fear tried to take over....but then He reminded me that when Simon was asked to push out into deep waters, there was very little risk for him. What did he have to lose?  He obeyed in faith and he was greatly rewarded for that faith.  The passage even says, do not fear.   The Lord also highlighted, that sometimes we won't understand the WHY on what He's asking us, but we need to always remember HE has our best interest in mind and whatever He does do will exceed our expectations!!! Our response should be similar to that of the fisherman - they fell to their knees in AWE and were OVERWHELMED with God's holiness!   This past week, I have been in that place spiritually.  I have already been weeping and praising God and thanking HIM for what He's about to do.  I feel it!   He has also been cancelling scheduled events on our calendar here in Eldo and my little assumption to that is that He is soon going to shift us out of here!  Don't ask me HOW?  I have NO idea!   He has given me some hints, but His ways are so much greater that I don't know how to interpret the hints!   So, I, well both Ken and I just STAND in strong faith that SOON we will be entering THE PROMISE LAND!  

The doors that seemed shut while we were on our scouting trip have since opened.  There is another property that has come on the market that FITS the criteria to the tee for the vision He has given us.  We love it and have even done a "FaceTime" walk through with our realtor.   The Lord has given us two business ideas as well that we fell in love with that will help support us and the retreat property, and yet, we need God to provide to get that funded as well.  We have done the due diligence on both and have strong confirmations from those we submit to that this is of the Lord!   Exciting times!   God, show up and show off!  For Your Glory!!!!!  

If there is something God is asking of you - do not fear!  Take courage - act on it!  

Trust & Obey!  The rewards for obedience are far greater than what you might be giving up!  Remember when you are faithful with little, much more is given!  This is your time to receive MORE!  God has so much for all of us - but our part - is to walk it out in FAITH!!!!! 

Prayer requests:
Ken - continue to pray for his back.  
Michele - continue to pray for sleep & complete healing!  I know it's coming!
Ministry - provision for the vision(s) 

Thank YOU so much for your ongoing support, prayers, love and care for us and our ministry.  We are honored to be able to pray for those who reach out to us.  Please let me know if you have any prayer needs.   For those who have been reaching out, thank you!  I am praying for your requests.  

If you have been blessed by this ministry or feel led to support what God is doing through us - financially, below are a few options.  Your generosity and your prayer support is greatly appreciated and needed as we continue to walk in faith and God's calling. 

Megablessings  - 

Ken & Michele Cole

http://www.wantinsight.com

michele@wantinsight.com, ken@wantinsight.com

Tax deductible & non tax deductible donations can be made: 

1.  Checks made payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744 or if you prefer anonymous giving - you can give through our Donor Fund 

2.  Non tax deductible donations can be made directly to us by:  THIS IS THE FASTEST WAY TO GET MONEY TO US FOR DAILY USE. 

 Paypal - www.paypal.com  (michele@wantinsight.com) 

3. Donor Fund - Contact National Christian Foundation - Ken & Michele Cole - Want InSight Fund -   Tax deductible 

    7171 W. 95th Street, Suite 501

Overland Park, KS 66212

    Phone: 913.310.0279

    Fax: 913.227.0254     www.nationalchristian.com 

Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  

Focus!

 35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”

39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.

40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”  Mark 4:35-41 NIV

In this passage - didn't Jesus say, get in the boat and let's go over to the other side?  When the storm hits, are you looking at the storm or are you eyes fixed on Jesus and His words?

The waves are crashing in.  The enemy is prowling around looking to devour.  BUT GOD!

This devotional is a good reminder of who God is for us in this season.


Streams in the Desert June 27th.
The Lord hath sent strength for thee (Ps.68.28, PBV).

The Lord imparts unto us that primary strength of character which makes everything in life work with intensity and decision. We are "strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man." And the strength is continuous; reserves of power come to us which we cannot exhaust.

"As thy days, so shall thy strength be"—strength of will, strength of affection, strength of judgment, strength of ideals and achievement.

"The Lord is my strength" to go on. He gives us power to tread the dead level, to walk the long lane that seems never to have a turning, to go through those long reaches of life which afford no pleasant surprise, and which depress the spirits in the sameness of a terrible drudgery.

"The Lord is my strength" to go up. He is to me the power by which I can climb the Hill Difficulty and not be afraid.

"The Lord is my strength" to go down. It is when we leave the bracing heights, where the wind and the sun have been about us, and when we begin to come down the hill into closer and more sultry spheres, that the heart is apt to grow faint. I heard a man say the other day concerning his growing physical frailty, "It is the coming down that tires me!"

"The Lord is my strength" to sit still. And how difficult is the attainment! Do we not often say to one another, in seasons when we are compelled to be quiet, "If only I could do something!"

When the child is ill, and the mother stands by in comparative impotence, how severe is the test! But to do nothing, just to sit still and wait, requires tremendous strength.

"The Lord is my strength!" "Our sufficiency is of God" (2 Cor. 3:5. from The Silver Lining

Our only hope is trusting in the strength of our Lord.  We have to keep our focus fixed on Jesus, our trust has to stay on His promises and His Word - He will see us through!

Streams in the Desert June 29th 

"There we saw the Giants" (Num. 13:33).

Yes, they saw the giants, but Caleb and Joshua saw God! Those who doubt say, "We be not able to go up." Those who believe say, "Let us go up at once and possess it, for we are well able."

Giants stand for great difficulties; and giants are stalking everywhere. They are in our families, in our churches, in our social life, in our own hearts; and we must overcome them or they will eat us up, as these men of old said of the giants of Canaan. The men of faith said, "They are bread for us; we will eat them up." In other words, "We will be stronger by overcoming them than if there had been no giants to overcome."

Now the fact is, unless we have the overcoming faith we shall be eaten up, consumed by the giants in our path. Let us have the spirit of faith that these men of faith had, and see God, and He will take care of the difficulties.
--Selected

It is when we are in the way of duty that we find giants. It was when Israel was going forward that the, giants appeared. When they turned back into the wilderness they found none.

There is a prevalent idea that the power of God in a human life should lift us above all trials and conflicts. The fact is, the power of God always brings a conflict and a struggle. One would have thought that on his great missionary journey to Rome, Paul would have been carried by some mighty providence above the power of storms and tempests and enemies. But, on the contrary, it was one long, hard fight with persecuting Jews, with wild tempests, with venomous vipers and all the powers of earth and hell, and at last he was saved, as it seemed, by the narrowest margin, and had to swim ashore at Malta on a piece of wreckage and barely escape a watery grave.

Was that like a God of infinite power? Yes, just like Him. And so Paul tells us that when he took the Lord Jesus Christ as the life of his body, a severe conflict immediately came; indeed, a conflict that never ended, a pressure that was persistent, but out of which he always emerged victorious through the strength of Jesus Christ.

The language in which he describes this is most graphic. "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed, always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be manifested in our body."

What a ceaseless, strenuous struggle! It is impossible to express in English the forcible language of the original. There are five pictures in succession. In the first, the idea is crowding enemies pressing in from every side, and yet not crushing him because the police of heaven cleared the way just wide enough for him to get through. The literal translation would be, "We are crowded on every side, but not crushed."

The second picture is that of one whose way seems utterly closed and yet he has pressed through; there is light enough to show him the next step. The Revised Version translates it, "Perplexed but not unto despair." Rotherham still more literally renders it, "Without a way, but not without a by-way."

The third figure is that of an enemy in hot pursuit while the divine Defender still stands by, and he is not left alone. Again we adopt the fine rendering of Rotherham, "Pursued but not abandoned."

The fourth figure is still more vivid and dramatic. The enemy has overtaken him, has struck him, has knocked him down. But it is not a fatal blow; he is able to rise again. It might be translated, "Overthrown but not overcome."

Once more the figure advances, and now it seems to be even death itself, "Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus." But he does not die, for "the life also of Jesus" now comes to his aid and he lives in the life of another until his life work is done.

The reason so many fail in this experience of divine healing is because they expect to have it all without a struggle, and when the conflict comes and the battle wages long, they become discouraged and surrender. God has nothing worth having that is easy. There are no cheap goods in the heavenly market. Our redemption cost all that God had to give, and everything worth having is expensive. Hard places are the very school of faith and character, and if we are to rise over mere human strength and prove the power of life divine in these mortal bodies, it must be through a process of conflict that may well be called the birth travail of a new life. It is the old figure of the bush that burned, but was not consumed, or of the Vision in the house of the Interpreter of the flame that would not expire, notwithstanding the fact that the demon ceaselessly poured water on it, because in the background stood an angel ever pouring oil and keeping the flame aglow.

No, dear suffering child of God, you cannot fail if only you dare to believe, to stand fast and refuse to be overcome.
--Tract

I close with an amazingly anointed song a friend sent me last night.  This really spoke to me and I pray will bless you too. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnyVz1u-6yM&feature=share

The King Is Among Us

Elevation Worship

All our fathers saw in the days of old
Would you do it again
Do it again
All the stories told
All the miracles
Would you do it again
Do it again

You said “Consecrate yourselves to me
And you will see amazing things”

We need Your revival
Holy Spirit fire
Burning ever brighter in our souls
Kings and kingdoms falling
Hear your people calling
King of Kings, we need a miracle

There’s a time to sow and a time to reap
Would you do it again
Do it again
There’s a time to heal and a time to build
Would you do it again
Do it again

You said “Consecrate yourselves to me
And you will see amazing things”

We need Your revival
Holy Spirit fire
Burning ever brighter in our souls
Kings and kingdoms falling
Hear your people calling
King of Kings, we need a miracle

We need Your revival
Holy Spirit fire
Burning ever brighter in our souls
Kings and kingdoms falling
Hear your people calling
King of Kings, we need a miracle

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name
Oh, oh, we see His revival is rising up
We see His revival is rising up, oh

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name, oh, God

And revival, You are rising
You are rising
The Savior, oh, God, He is right here
He is rising up in His name
So waking up, He is waking up
We all see the problems all over the world
So waking up, oh, waking up
'Cause we all know, 'cause we all know our Gods
Oh, glory surrounds us
And our Gods, His love is among us
We stay with His victorious
This place, full of fears and coming down
This place, full of tears, broken down

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And He is rising in, He is rising

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious

Praise & Prayer Requests -
God is good!  He is faithful!  Thanking Him often for those who reach out to bless us with prayers and support of what God is doing in and through us.  Words can't express the humble gratitude I have for your ongoing friendship.

Ken - strength & endurance for his job - both physically & emotionally.  Still only part time!
Me -Healing and SLEEP - back to 2 hours or so.
Canyon - is still hanging on - but seeing more signs the end is getting closer.
Ministry - the Lords will be done.  We want to step into what He has called us too!!!

P.S.  There's a show on Netflix we saw awhile back- its called The Kindness Diaries. If you have the ability to watch it, please do.  It is so inspiring!  The guy who made the show, Leon Logothetis (you can like his page on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/leonlogothetis/) has these postcards that you complete every time you do a kind act for someone.  You mail them in and he will send a book to a child.  I asked him to send me several hundred.... so that is a goal I have - is to be able to complete at least one a day.  Kindness is Contagious!  

Thank YOU to those who email me prayer requests. It's been awesome especially this past month, the many I have received!  

If you have been blessed by this ministry or feel led to support what God is doing through us - financially, below are a few options.  Your generosity and your prayer support is greatly appreciated and needed as we continue to walk in faith and God's calling. 

Megablessings  - 

Ken & Michele Cole

http://www.wantinsight.com

michele@wantinsight.com, ken@wantinsight.com

Tax deductible & non tax deductible donations can be made: 

1.  Checks made payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744 or if you prefer anonymous giving - you can give through our Donor Fund 

2.  Non tax deductible donations can be made directly to us by:  THIS IS THE FASTEST WAY TO GET MONEY TO US FOR DAILY USE. 

 Paypal - www.paypal.com  (michele@wantinsight.com) 

3. Donor Fund - Contact National Christian Foundation - Ken & Michele Cole - Want InSight Fund -   Tax deductible 

    7171 W. 95th Street, Suite 501

Overland Park, KS 66212

    Phone: 913.310.0279

    Fax: 913.227.0254     www.nationalchristian.com 

Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.  

Obedience Brings Blessings

All these blessings will come on you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God .........
           Deuteronomy 28:2 


Has God ever asked you to do something that you were quite reluctant to do?  Are you one (like me) to ask a bazillion questions before you finally surrender and just obey?  What if God asked you something to do that downright embarrassing, maybe even humiliating?  Would you do it? 

Well, that's what this blog is about. A couple days ago, I felt the Lord wanted me to list all my health issues.  Yep, that's right.  Like you're really excited to read about that.  I don't know why He's asked this of me, except just maybe He wants to show us all what He's capable of when He does decide to heal me!  I don't know!  That's just a guess.  

Before I do, I want to share a devotional that I just read on April 20th from Streams in the Desert.  This devotional book, I swear (ok you shouldn't swear) has been speaking to me almost every single day this year!  Quite amazing how God works that out!  This specific one, has really spoken to me where I believe God has been leading me for quite some time.  

Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith Jehovah of hosts (Zech. 4:6).

My way led up a hill, and right at the foot I saw a boy on a bicycle. He was pedalling up hill against the wind, and evidently found it a tremendously hard work. Just as he was working most strenuously and doing his best painfully, there came a trolley car going in the same direction--up the hill.

It was not going too fast for the boy to get behind it, and with one hand to lay hold of the bar at the back. Then you know what happened. He went up that hill like a bird. Then it flashed upon me:

"Why, I am like that boy on the bicycle in my weariness and weakness. I am pedalling up hill against all kinds of opposition, and am almost worn out with the task. But here at hand is a great available power, the strength of the Lord Jesus.

"I have only to get in touch with Him and to maintain communication with Him, though it may be only one little finger of faith, and that will be enough to make His power mine for the doing of this bit of service that just now seems too much for me." And I was helped to dismiss my weariness and to realize this truth.
--The Life of Fuller Purpose

ABANDONED

Utterly abandoned to the Holy Ghost!
Seeking all His fulness at whatever cost;
Cutting all the shore-lines, launching in the deep
Of His mighty power--strong to save and keep.
Utterly abandoned to the Holy Ghost!
Oh! the sinking, sinking, until self is lost!
Until the emptied vessel lies broken at His feet;
Waiting till His filling shall make the work complete.
Utterly abandoned to the will of God;
Seeking for no other path than my Master trod;
Leaving ease and pleasure, making Him my choice,
Waiting for His guidance, listening for His voice.
Utterly abandoned! no will of my own;
For time and for eternity, His, and His alone;
All my plans and purposes lost in His sweet will,
Having nothing, yet in Him all things possessing still.
Utterly abandoned! 'tis so sweet to be
Captive in His bonds of love, yet so wondrous free;
Free from sin's entanglements, free from doubt and fear,
Free from every worry, burden, grief or care.
Utterly abandoned! oh, the rest is sweet,
As I tarry, waiting, at His blessed feet;
Waiting for the coming of the Guest divine,
Who my inmost being shall perfectly refine.
Lo! He comes and fills me, Holy Spirit sweet!
I, in Him, am satisfied! I, in Him, complete!
And the light within my soul shall nevermore grow dim
While I keep my covenant--abandoned unto Him!
--Author Unknown

I'll quit stalling now... and list what I feel God is asking. I know that my obedience will bring blessings!  These are all daily unless listed otherwise. Oh and I haven't had any health insurance since 2012.  I'm not on disability as they say I don't qualify.   

Migraines - have had daily for 30 years but in the last year have seen much relief.  Now only a few a month.  

Unexplained pain - both legs, both feet top & bottom, both calves, upper back, neck, wrists, forearms, hands/fingers, occasional sharp pain in my ears. Shoulder pain. Pain in my upper thighs, probably because I don't walk normal.  

Pain - adrenals & liver when I take Excedrin, kidney pain - sharp spams, low back from degenerating discs, tailbone from where I fell on ice, right knee - only 90 degree range of motion, constant pain from three knee surgeries.   I'm not able to walk very far - grocery stores are almost too much.

Sciatica pain down both legs - and IT Band pain - it's the muscle next to the sciatica.  This hurts relentlessly.  It is so hard to sit and be comfortable.  I squirm a lot!

Long before I became a Christian, I chose not to take prescribed painkillers or narcotics.  I think that was God.  I would of become addicted too easily.  

Sinus Pressure, though improved with daily honey ginger syrup we make.  Dry hacking cough every morning.  

Random Bladder & Kidney Infections

Swelling in Lymph Nodes & small bumps under arms.  This worries me!

Sleep deprivation - 2004-2014 was around 4 hours a night only... since we moved to Eldo, it's worsened to average 2 hours a night.  I do occasionally get a night or two of decent sleep, but not consistent.  

Itchy scalp - no idea why... noticed after many steroid injections in the 90s?  

Hair loss like you wouldn't believe!  Sometimes I get handfuls when I shampoo.

Hypothyroid.  

Adrenals - Fatigued - Previously Diagnosed with Cushing Disease from excessive steroids given to me for pain management.  Almost at deaths door.  Chronic fatigue, limited energy, brain fog (that's improving), limited ability to read (thats improving).  Limited Energy. The endocrinologist I saw had not successfully treated anyone who has had over 100 steroid injections.  She said that no one should have more than maybe 10 in a lifetime!  She was surprised I was alive!  But by God's grace He has been sustaining me!  

NAFLD - non -alcoholic fatty liver disease - from excedrin & steroid use. I feel that this may be being reversed with all the good natural things I'm doing.  

Stomach is much improved after years and years of probiotics, kefir & Kombucha.  But occasionally still have an issue. 

Random Chest pains 

Renal Artery Stenosis - narrowing of renal arteries going into kidney's.  maybe caused by excedrin use for migraines... this triggers blood pressure spikes 220/130.... but getting this under control with both natural and rx.

Torment - the enemy torments me in my mind on a regular basis.  Tells me I'm going to die or I have cancer, or whatever.  I just found out recently that several others, I know experience this.  It is HELL!   (Can I say hell?  Well, I did)    Yes, I renew my mind in the Word!  It's just an attack to try and get me to agree with the plans of Satan.  NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!  I have renounced all agreement.

Fear and Anxiety - try to take over often....but again I use the Word!!!

Oh there's probably more I could list, but thankfully I can't think of them!  Ha!  And I know and realize there are so many others who are way worse off than me.  This is in no way a comparison to anyone.  Just being obedient to what I felt the Lord asked of me.  

Today on Facebook, the post below really spoke to me. As I read it, I said, Lord let this be me, please.  About an hour after I read this and shared the post, somebody who doesn't even know me (in a few of the same Facebook groups), sent this to me through Messenger and said "I definitely knew this was YOUR WORD and Yes, it will manifest SOON/SPEEDILY! I decree it in Jesus Name, Amen..."

Kathy Mote

16 hrs · 

I see a woman standing on the promises, waiting on God. She stands believing, long after she has strength to understand. She is past weariness, yet still she stands. She will not give up on His promises to her, no matter how long she has to wait. I hear the Father demand that the enemy give up his hold, give up his place, give up his stand against her, and loosen his grip. I hear the enemy grind his teeth. he is angry, but he will obey. Someone your breakthrough is very near. Your time has come to see victory. You will have what was promised to you. You will not be made to look like a fool! They Lord will see to it that you are not disappointed, that your faith in Him will be rewarded. As you waited you grew in a very special faith. You have two blessings instead of just one. First your breakthrough, and second, great faith. For as you wait on the Lord, you choose Him above all else. You choose Him over what you feel, what you see, and over every temptation, and all your fears. You are walking by faith, and that is how you receive. You also received your freedom, for your faith is in Him!

Often when you have chronic illness and pain, everybody has there answer to getting you well. Some tell you that you're in sin or you need to forgive or if you take this product I sell, it will heal you. I even had a lady tell me since I wasn't taking her protocol and spending $100's of dollars a month on the supplements she recommended, is why I won't EVER get my healing. Ouch! I believe in taking great supplements and eating right & exercising (when I can).  I also believe the importance of forgiving and turning from sin. Those are all very much apart of one's healing. There are times that God waits to bring healing, so it will glorify Him.

Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.  John 9:3

Several years ago I had prayed and asked God "what more can I do to get my healing" And He said nothing...there is nothing you can do.  Wait on Me.  That very word got confirmed by Tony Kemp who was ministering at a local church.  He called me out, and when I went up for prayer (everyone he had prayed for that night got healed...and most of the audience was excited and thought I'd get my healing too)...... when I got up there, He said, "the Lord says "there is nothing you can do to get your healing.  Your healing will come when God says so....and don't let anyone tell you, you don't have enough faith, because you lady, do!"

I know that my healing will come. I don't know when...but I am expectant and hopeful. I will admit there are times when I fall into deep despair. The pain, the suffering can be overwhelming. This is when I reach out for prayer....and cling to Scriptures like these.

But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its rays. And you will go out and frolic like well-fed calves - Malachai 4:2 

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.  Psalm 27:13-14

God's desire is for us to be whole, healed and walking in health!  When you believe that
deep down in your spirit, there is much hope that comes.  

Would you please continue to believe for my complete healing.  Would you agree with me that it will come soon!   In order for me/us to walk in what God is calling us to do (and that vision, we believe will come to pass soon as well), I need to be HEALED!!!!!  I know His grace is sufficient and He has brought me this far.....but I believe HEALING is coming!  I'm so appreciative of ALL that pray for me regularly!  It means more than words can say!

And Thank YOU to those who email me prayer requests.  I really am blessed to be able to have the time to do that for you!  

If you have been blessed by this ministry or feel led to support what God is doing through us - financially, below are a few options.  Your generosity and your prayer support is greatly appreciated and needed as we continue to walk in faith and God's calling. 

Megablessings  - 

Ken & Michele Cole

http://www.wantinsight.com

michele@wantinsight.com, ken@wantinsight.com

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1.  Checks made payable to Sonlit Fields, PO Box 371, El Dorado Springs, MO 64744 or if you prefer anonymous giving - you can give through our Donor Fund 

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Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.