Crushed but not destroyed!

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2 Corinthians 4:8-10
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair.  We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.

When I first was saved in 2002, I made a deal with God (not something I recommend, ha).  I told him that if He healed me of migraines, (I have had migraines since 1984) I'd speak in front of a crowd the size of Chief's stadium.  If you knew me then or even now, you would know that I am terrified to speak in front of any size group.  Not much after that "deal", He told me to start practicing because He was going to heal me.  

The Lord gave me this Scripture.  It was something I clinged to and still do......

Malachai 4:2-3 But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings. And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture.  On the day when I act, you will tread upon the wicked as if they were dust under your feet,” says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies.

A few years ago, while I was in bed crying out to Him for healing, the Lord came to me in an open vision.  Jesus was kneeling next to my bed, His hands outstretched to heaven, tears running down His face.  He was interceding to the Father on my behalf.  I heard Him (not audibly) say "Father, enough is enough."   I again thought surely healing was coming soon. Not! 

Since then, I had another experience, I was in my quiet time and I was literally begging God - asking Him what did I have to do in order to get my healing.  Was there unconfessed sin, any unforgiveness, anything that I needed to do or take?  I have been to every doctor, every natural holistic practitoner, tried every rx or natural supplement to no avail.    In His still small voice, He said "There is nothing you can do Michele.  It is in My timing and for My glory. I will give you the grace you need until that time."   This was later confirmed at a conference I attended.  The speaker was getting words of knowledge for several folks and as he prayed for them, they were healed instantly (not confirmed by dr yet but their symptoms disappeared).  He then turned towards me and said, "you, come up here, please."  Everyone in the place knew me and knew all the issues I deal with and was literally leaping for joy as they too knew this was the night that God was going to heal me.  When I got up to the front (very uncomfortable but was willing to do anything for my healing).... the speaker said "odd, I don't have any revelation for you except, the Lord is saying there is nothing you can do.  You have the faith to be made well."  And then he prayed a blessing over me and I sat back down.   I cannot tell you how much hurt and disappointment I was experiencing.  I was crushed, beaten down, hopeless and falling into deep despair once again.   

Another time, I asked Him specifically if when He said I would be healed, would that be while I was living or when He took me home?  And over the course of 3 days, He gave me this Scripture (once to me personally and 3 more times through friends who had no idea).  

 

Psalm 27:13-14 Yet I am confident, I will see the Lord's goodness while I am here in the land of the living.  Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes wait patiently for the Lord. (emphasis mine)

Not long ago, I just for giggles wrote out a list of all my physical ailments, diseases, pain, etc and the list was well over 30.  I was dumbfounded and overwhelmed. 

I am thankful for many friends who let me vent and who speak comfort and encouragement to me.... they help me overcome all the naysayers who say I don't have faith, or I need to speak more scriptures over myself or  I need to quit talking about my issues.  I'm sorry if that offends you, but I am just plain weary and just need DIVINE INTERVENTION.   We humans can say the worst things to those who just need to be LOVED and COMFORTED.  

God calls us to LOVE one another, not judge them.  

So why do I share all this with you now......I don't know for sure other than I sensed the Lord said to and He gave me this verse.  I don't know that I can say I'm "glad" to boast about my weaknesses... but I do want the power of Christ to work through me..... to bring healing and hope to others!

2 Corinthians 12:9 

Each time He said, "My grace is all you need.  My power works best in weakness."  So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.  

Many of you pray for me all the time and don't need to be prompted.... but I'm desperate for the healing I believe the Lord has promised me in this lifetime.  His grace may be sufficient as I continue to walk with Him....but I know with my healing comes so much more I can do for His Kingdom!  I am extremely limited both physically and mentally to do much at this time.   I get tired of asking for prayer and being a burden, but feel the Lord is keeping me humble.  

I haven't been sleeping much more than 2-3 hours on average a night...so I have plenty of time to pray and intercede for others.  I want to reciprocate if you have any prayer needs!   I do pray as the Lord leads, but if there is anything specific, please let me know!  

Thank YOU for all who are praying and sharing that you are and sharing what you hear.  Our arms are weary, our faith is wobbly, but we continue to persevere.  It is because of YOU that we are able to stand!!!  We pray MEGA BLESSINGS back to you....100 fold return!  

We appreciate you and BLESS your ongoing support.  

If you have been blessed by this ministry or feel led to support what God is doing through us - financially, below are a few options.  Your generosity and your prayer support is greatly appreciated and needed as we continue to walk in faith and God's calling. 

God Bless YOU -

Ken & Michele Cole

http://www.wantinsight.com

michele@wantinsight.com, ken@wantinsight.com

Tax deductible donations can be made by visiting:

1. https://www.hhmin.org/make_donation_projects.php, select Ministry Projects, then use drop down box Ken & Michele Cole - Want InSight?
2. Or you can donate through my medical account, select Medical Projects, then Michele Cole.  

(any donations made through HH is anonymous..so if you want us to know, please let us know).

3. Non tax deductible donations can be made directly to us by:

 Paypal - www.paypal.com  (michele@wantinsight.com) 

Rest, Rest, Rest!

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Psalm 116:7 “Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.”




Just a quick update...we are now in Excelsior Springs, MO which is our temporary housing until the house we are going to rent in El Dorado Springs, MO becomes available (sometime around the first week of Feb).  The house we are in is a blessing!  It's clean, recently rehabbed, fully furnished other than the kitchen (which we brought our kitchen & pantry stuff).  The dogs are acclimating finally.  It's a little cold for Ken as there is no fence so he has been having to walk Blazer.  Canyon is easier and handles the stake in the ground fine!  Oh, did I tell you, I have NOT had a migraine for the entire 9 days we have been here!  No meds!  Whoohoo!  Praise God!  

We are kind of isolated up here but it's been a great time to REST!  That's all we seem to be doing is resting, sleeping and more rest.  Somedays have found ourselves getting into our pj's at 4:30 and to bed by 8:30.  We are plum exhausted from the move.  We are thankful for the time to rest!! This short little detour we believe is God giving us time to get a 2nd wind so we will be ready to unpack when the movers bring our things to El Dorado once we get there. 

We did enjoy going to a house church up in Lathrop MO last Saturday night.  The Lord blessed us with some great encouragement and prophetic direction.  Refreshing!  Aahhhh!  And our quiet time with the Lord has been sweet.  Love that we are both hearing His voice more often again!   

Thank you to those checking in on us.  

We are dreaming of a nice tropical hut vacation..... ha!  Isn't everyone about now?  

The Lord is stirring a word in me to share with all of you....as that unfolds and I can articulate it, will blog again.  

Please keep us in prayer that this time of rest will bring complete healing to my body.  I am having tons of pain, of course, the exhaustion and still not sleeping a full night.  Pray that there will be no hiccups and all will go smoothly from here to our new location in Eldo.  

If you have been blessed by this ministry or feel led to support what God is doing through us - financially, below are a few options.  Your generosity and your prayer support is greatly appreciated and needed as we continue to walk in faith and God's calling. 

God Bless YOU -

Ken & Michele Cole

http://www.wantinsight.com

michele@wantinsight.com, ken@wantinsight.com

Tax deductible donations can be made by visiting:

1. https://www.hhmin.org/make_donation_projects.php, select Ministry Projects, then use drop down box Ken & Michele Cole - Want InSight?
2. Or you can donate through my medical account, select Medical Projects, then Michele Cole.  

(any donations made through HH is anonymous..so if you want us to know, please let us know).
3.  You can donate through our Donor Fund at National Christian Foundation:

Donate to Ken & Michele Cole-  The Want InSight Phil 4:19 Fund !

4. Non tax deductible donations can be made directly to us by:

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Ken and I love to pray for folks who need a touch from the Lord - with words of encouragement, words of knowledge and a healing touch.  If you are someone in need, please let us know.  We also have a passion to activate and influence believers to walk in radical obedience to a fun and wonderful God!  There is just nothing like it!  

If you are interested in Ken and I coming to minister to you, your small group or church, or go on a "treasurehunt" with us, please give us a call or email.  We would be delighted to!

Business - 

Our LLC is official - Want InSight Chaplain Services.  We still have many things that need to be done, logo design, website, etc.... waiting on God to provide the resources and further direction.  

In the meantime,  would you please help us?  Do you know of an employer who often experiences high absenteeism due to the employees having personal issues?  Or maybe has little employee engagement due to struggles on or off the job?  We can help with that.  

We are looking for companies who truly care about their employees and want to offer a business enrichment program that can increase productivity, improve employee and employer morale and provide a safe and emotionally health work environment.  If you know of someone who may be interested, would you be willing to give us an introduction?    We are determined and blessed to have this opportunity to create a cultural change in the workplace!