All these blessings will come on you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God .........Deuteronomy 28:2
Has God ever asked you to do something that you were quite reluctant to do? Are you one (like me) to ask a bazillion questions before you finally surrender and just obey? What if God asked you something to do that downright embarrassing, maybe even humiliating? Would you do it?
Well, that's what this blog is about. A couple days ago, I felt the Lord wanted me to list all my health issues. Yep, that's right. Like you're really excited to read about that. I don't know why He's asked this of me, except just maybe He wants to show us all what He's capable of when He does decide to heal me! I don't know! That's just a guess.
Before I do, I want to share a devotional that I just read on April 20th from Streams in the Desert. This devotional book, I swear (ok you shouldn't swear) has been speaking to me almost every single day this year! Quite amazing how God works that out! This specific one, has really spoken to me where I believe God has been leading me for quite some time.
Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith Jehovah of hosts (Zech. 4:6).
My way led up a hill, and right at the foot I saw a boy on a bicycle. He was pedalling up hill against the wind, and evidently found it a tremendously hard work. Just as he was working most strenuously and doing his best painfully, there came a trolley car going in the same direction--up the hill.
It was not going too fast for the boy to get behind it, and with one hand to lay hold of the bar at the back. Then you know what happened. He went up that hill like a bird. Then it flashed upon me:
"Why, I am like that boy on the bicycle in my weariness and weakness. I am pedalling up hill against all kinds of opposition, and am almost worn out with the task. But here at hand is a great available power, the strength of the Lord Jesus.
"I have only to get in touch with Him and to maintain communication with Him, though it may be only one little finger of faith, and that will be enough to make His power mine for the doing of this bit of service that just now seems too much for me." And I was helped to dismiss my weariness and to realize this truth.
--The Life of Fuller Purpose
--The Life of Fuller Purpose
ABANDONED
Utterly abandoned to the Holy Ghost!
Seeking all His fulness at whatever cost;
Cutting all the shore-lines, launching in the deep
Of His mighty power--strong to save and keep.
Utterly abandoned to the Holy Ghost!
Oh! the sinking, sinking, until self is lost!
Until the emptied vessel lies broken at His feet;
Waiting till His filling shall make the work complete.
Utterly abandoned to the will of God;
Seeking for no other path than my Master trod;
Leaving ease and pleasure, making Him my choice,
Waiting for His guidance, listening for His voice.
Utterly abandoned! no will of my own;
For time and for eternity, His, and His alone;
All my plans and purposes lost in His sweet will,
Having nothing, yet in Him all things possessing still.
Utterly abandoned! 'tis so sweet to be
Captive in His bonds of love, yet so wondrous free;
Free from sin's entanglements, free from doubt and fear,
Free from every worry, burden, grief or care.
Utterly abandoned! oh, the rest is sweet,
As I tarry, waiting, at His blessed feet;
Waiting for the coming of the Guest divine,
Who my inmost being shall perfectly refine.
Lo! He comes and fills me, Holy Spirit sweet!
I, in Him, am satisfied! I, in Him, complete!
And the light within my soul shall nevermore grow dim
While I keep my covenant--abandoned unto Him!
--Author Unknown
Seeking all His fulness at whatever cost;
Cutting all the shore-lines, launching in the deep
Of His mighty power--strong to save and keep.
Utterly abandoned to the Holy Ghost!
Oh! the sinking, sinking, until self is lost!
Until the emptied vessel lies broken at His feet;
Waiting till His filling shall make the work complete.
Utterly abandoned to the will of God;
Seeking for no other path than my Master trod;
Leaving ease and pleasure, making Him my choice,
Waiting for His guidance, listening for His voice.
Utterly abandoned! no will of my own;
For time and for eternity, His, and His alone;
All my plans and purposes lost in His sweet will,
Having nothing, yet in Him all things possessing still.
Utterly abandoned! 'tis so sweet to be
Captive in His bonds of love, yet so wondrous free;
Free from sin's entanglements, free from doubt and fear,
Free from every worry, burden, grief or care.
Utterly abandoned! oh, the rest is sweet,
As I tarry, waiting, at His blessed feet;
Waiting for the coming of the Guest divine,
Who my inmost being shall perfectly refine.
Lo! He comes and fills me, Holy Spirit sweet!
I, in Him, am satisfied! I, in Him, complete!
And the light within my soul shall nevermore grow dim
While I keep my covenant--abandoned unto Him!
--Author Unknown
I'll quit stalling now... and list what I feel God is asking. I know that my obedience will bring blessings! These are all daily unless listed otherwise. Oh and I haven't had any health insurance since 2012. I'm not on disability as they say I don't qualify.
Migraines - have had daily for 30 years but in the last year have seen much relief. Now only a few a month.
Unexplained pain - both legs, both feet top & bottom, both calves, upper back, neck, wrists, forearms, hands/fingers, occasional sharp pain in my ears. Shoulder pain. Pain in my upper thighs, probably because I don't walk normal.
Pain - adrenals & liver when I take Excedrin, kidney pain - sharp spams, low back from degenerating discs, tailbone from where I fell on ice, right knee - only 90 degree range of motion, constant pain from three knee surgeries. I'm not able to walk very far - grocery stores are almost too much.
Sciatica pain down both legs - and IT Band pain - it's the muscle next to the sciatica. This hurts relentlessly. It is so hard to sit and be comfortable. I squirm a lot!
Long before I became a Christian, I chose not to take prescribed painkillers or narcotics. I think that was God. I would of become addicted too easily.
Sciatica pain down both legs - and IT Band pain - it's the muscle next to the sciatica. This hurts relentlessly. It is so hard to sit and be comfortable. I squirm a lot!
Long before I became a Christian, I chose not to take prescribed painkillers or narcotics. I think that was God. I would of become addicted too easily.
Sinus Pressure, though improved with daily honey ginger syrup we make. Dry hacking cough every morning.
Random Bladder & Kidney Infections
Swelling in Lymph Nodes & small bumps under arms. This worries me!
Sleep deprivation - 2004-2014 was around 4 hours a night only... since we moved to Eldo, it's worsened to average 2 hours a night. I do occasionally get a night or two of decent sleep, but not consistent.
Itchy scalp - no idea why... noticed after many steroid injections in the 90s?
Hair loss like you wouldn't believe! Sometimes I get handfuls when I shampoo.
Hypothyroid.
Adrenals - Fatigued - Previously Diagnosed with Cushing Disease from excessive steroids given to me for pain management. Almost at deaths door. Chronic fatigue, limited energy, brain fog (that's improving), limited ability to read (thats improving). Limited Energy. The endocrinologist I saw had not successfully treated anyone who has had over 100 steroid injections. She said that no one should have more than maybe 10 in a lifetime! She was surprised I was alive! But by God's grace He has been sustaining me!
NAFLD - non -alcoholic fatty liver disease - from excedrin & steroid use. I feel that this may be being reversed with all the good natural things I'm doing.
Stomach is much improved after years and years of probiotics, kefir & Kombucha. But occasionally still have an issue.
Random Chest pains
Renal Artery Stenosis - narrowing of renal arteries going into kidney's. maybe caused by excedrin use for migraines... this triggers blood pressure spikes 220/130.... but getting this under control with both natural and rx.
Torment - the enemy torments me in my mind on a regular basis. Tells me I'm going to die or I have cancer, or whatever. I just found out recently that several others, I know experience this. It is HELL! (Can I say hell? Well, I did) Yes, I renew my mind in the Word! It's just an attack to try and get me to agree with the plans of Satan. NO MORE!!!!!!!!!! I have renounced all agreement.
Fear and Anxiety - try to take over often....but again I use the Word!!!
Torment - the enemy torments me in my mind on a regular basis. Tells me I'm going to die or I have cancer, or whatever. I just found out recently that several others, I know experience this. It is HELL! (Can I say hell? Well, I did) Yes, I renew my mind in the Word! It's just an attack to try and get me to agree with the plans of Satan. NO MORE!!!!!!!!!! I have renounced all agreement.
Fear and Anxiety - try to take over often....but again I use the Word!!!
Oh there's probably more I could list, but thankfully I can't think of them! Ha! And I know and realize there are so many others who are way worse off than me. This is in no way a comparison to anyone. Just being obedient to what I felt the Lord asked of me.
Today on Facebook, the post below really spoke to me. As I read it, I said, Lord let this be me, please. About an hour after I read this and shared the post, somebody who doesn't even know me (in a few of the same Facebook groups), sent this to me through Messenger and said "I definitely knew this was YOUR WORD and Yes, it will manifest SOON/SPEEDILY! I decree it in Jesus Name, Amen..."
I see a woman standing on the promises, waiting on God. She stands believing, long after she has strength to understand. She is past weariness, yet still she stands. She will not give up on His promises to her, no matter how long she has to wait. I hear the Father demand that the enemy give up his hold, give up his place, give up his stand against her, and loosen his grip. I hear the enemy grind his teeth. he is angry, but he will obey. Someone your breakthrough is very near. Your time has come to see victory. You will have what was promised to you. You will not be made to look like a fool! They Lord will see to it that you are not disappointed, that your faith in Him will be rewarded. As you waited you grew in a very special faith. You have two blessings instead of just one. First your breakthrough, and second, great faith. For as you wait on the Lord, you choose Him above all else. You choose Him over what you feel, what you see, and over every temptation, and all your fears. You are walking by faith, and that is how you receive. You also received your freedom, for your faith is in Him!
Often when you have chronic illness and pain, everybody has there answer to getting you well. Some tell you that you're in sin or you need to forgive or if you take this product I sell, it will heal you. I even had a lady tell me since I wasn't taking her protocol and spending $100's of dollars a month on the supplements she recommended, is why I won't EVER get my healing. Ouch! I believe in taking great supplements and eating right & exercising (when I can). I also believe the importance of forgiving and turning from sin. Those are all very much apart of one's healing. There are times that God waits to bring healing, so it will glorify Him.
Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. John 9:3
Several years ago I had prayed and asked God "what more can I do to get my healing" And He said nothing...there is nothing you can do. Wait on Me. That very word got confirmed by Tony Kemp who was ministering at a local church. He called me out, and when I went up for prayer (everyone he had prayed for that night got healed...and most of the audience was excited and thought I'd get my healing too)...... when I got up there, He said, "the Lord says "there is nothing you can do to get your healing. Your healing will come when God says so....and don't let anyone tell you, you don't have enough faith, because you lady, do!"
I know that my healing will come. I don't know when...but I am expectant and hopeful. I will admit there are times when I fall into deep despair. The pain, the suffering can be overwhelming. This is when I reach out for prayer....and cling to Scriptures like these.
But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its rays. And you will go out and frolic like well-fed calves - Malachai 4:2
I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:13-14
14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:13-14
God's desire is for us to be whole, healed and walking in health! When you believe that deep down in your spirit, there is much hope that comes.
Would you please continue to believe for my complete healing. Would you agree with me that it will come soon! In order for me/us to walk in what God is calling us to do (and that vision, we believe will come to pass soon as well), I need to be HEALED!!!!! I know His grace is sufficient and He has brought me this far.....but I believe HEALING is coming! I'm so appreciative of ALL that pray for me regularly! It means more than words can say!
And Thank YOU to those who email me prayer requests. I really am blessed to be able to have the time to do that for you!
And Thank YOU to those who email me prayer requests. I really am blessed to be able to have the time to do that for you!
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Megablessings -
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God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.
The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted). We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord.
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In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.
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