Tuesday, August 19, 2025

What's Next?

 


1 CORINTHIANS 16:9

“For a wide door for effective work has opened to me 

FIRST AND FOREMOST - I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH FOR LIFTING ME/US IN PRAYER.   YOUR PRAYERS ARE BEING ANSWERED!  

A lot can change in a matter of days.   Have you experienced that?  One day you're wondering what's next and the next, opportunities come out of nowhere.  

As you know Thrive Life announced in July that they were closing their doors permanently the end of August.  That date is coming fast.   I worked for them as a consultant selling freeze dried foods for those who were preparing for emergencies, everyday eating and hunters and campers since 2011.   Thrive Life was the best company in the country.  Sadly, the parent company which just recently took over, decided they wanted to cut out all of us.   

Quite a few of us within Thrive started searching out other companies that could offer at least similar to what we had.   Far and few between are there any that actually taste good and are clean, meaning non-gmo, gluten free, no additives, etc.    Well one of our leaders had  met a guy over a year ago.  When he heard about Thrive Life closing down, they sent out a box of samples to this leader.   She threw it in the mix of many she was sampling.   Well, long story short, she found the one that would meet and even beat Thrive Life on taste, quality and have the same strict standards which we've been spoiled by.  

For the past few days I have been on zoom call after zoom call learning and gathering information and becoming an affiliate for not only this company but another that will compliment it.  Wise Harvest Freeze Dried Foods is still small in their offerings but they are willing to add product, add cans vs just mylar pouches and are excited about partnering with so many "previous" Thrive Life Consultants.  They are stoked about the 100's and soon to be 1000's who are joining as affiliate which is what I am now.  This affiliate program is being created by them and the consultant leaders of Thrive Life to build an amazing company with great product, service and benefits for customers and affiliates.   

If you are interested in trying samples through 8/26 you can use Coupon Code THANKYOU at this link https://wiseharvestfreezedriedfoods.com/?ref=michelecole  put 2 Sample packs in your cart and check out.  You'll only pay for 1.   If you love the product, you can join as an affiliate and earn $ on other's orders.   Use this link to join.   There is NO cost to join and no requirements for purchase.   https://wiseharvestfreezedriedfoods.goaffpro.com/create-account?ref=michelecole.   I am awaiting myself for samples to try but everyone who has already got theirs said it's absolutely fabulous!  

Another opportunity came along side this.  A company by the name of Thrivalist (not related to Thrive Life).  They are also a freeze dried company and prepper and prepper education company.   I am not as excited about their freeze dried options but am excited about the emergency supplies and education they offer.  This can help people plan for emergencies.  Check them out at https://mythrivalist.com/create-account?ref=MICHELECOLE1.  You can be a customer or you can join for FREE as well.  They are offering for a short while an online course along with some samples of the food for 70% off using this coupon code MICHELECOLE70.

Another opportunity came quickly as well.  I had responded to a Facebook post for a local musician who needs someone to do some social media marketing across several platforms.  We met today and the job became mine over breakfast!   This is right up my alley.   It's a very little paying job but I do think there will be greater potential if things go well.  I'm on a 30 day trial period as this is new for her.   She was super famous and won CMA awards back in the 80's but left the music business when she got married and had a child.  Sadly, her husband passed and now her child is an adult and so she's getting back into it.  If you like country, you'll love her music.   She's a dear lady, gentle, humble, kind, generous and just easy to talk to.  I'm excited to be challenged to do marketing for something all together new.   And with a few connections I have, off to a good start in learning how to grow her fan club and hopefully get her into some music festivals.   Check her out here https://paulettecarlson.com/

An update about us -  Ken is still putting in lots of hours and is wiped out when he gets home.  I am continuing to work on unpacking.  Tomorrow I have a couple friends coming to hopefully tackle 1 more room after I fix a delicious brunch.   Bribery works all the time.  LOL!   

It was great to see some friends from Kansas City who recently moved to Florida.  They were visiting friends in Polson, MT at Flathead Lake for the week so they drove almost 2 hours to meet us in Missoula for a very long lunch visit.    Next time, we hope they come this way!  :)    

Thank you for  your prayers.  They are helping me.  I was in a very dark place for a while prior to and for about a week after our move. It was not a pleasant place!   But now having these opportunities before me, I have something to focus on.  God knew my heart and He sent so many praying saints to help pull me from the pit I was climbing into.    Please continue to pray for us - for provision (for these jobs to take off and make some decent income, for health, for sleep.   Oh and our home group has decided to put it on "pause" as we have no place to meet for this season.  That's going to be a big change for us.  We've hosted home groups since 2002.  We've rarely not met in all these years.   

Blessings to you.  And thank you for reaching out to me for your prayer needs.  I am honored to pray!  

Hugs, love and prayers.

Ken & Michele Cole 

michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:

     Ken & Michele Cole, 215 Tyra Lea Lane, Unit A, Hamilton, MT 59840  (preferable as the options below will tax us) 

     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through 

Paypal - paypal.me/micheleacole 

Venmo- @Michele-Cole-20

Cashapp - cash.app/$micheleacole2019     

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, 103 Geneva Ave, Hamilton, MT 59840

     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.

     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212

     Phone 913 310 0279

     www.thesignatry,com

     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.   








 



Saturday, August 9, 2025

Still Broken Down......

 

2 Corinthians 4:8-10 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

Well, for those that are curious... we did sign a 12 month lease on Friday 8/1 at 430pm, in the nick of time before having to be out on 8/2.   The new place is clean and new but there is no excitement about it.  This is not the place we hoped for and definitely not destiny.  

Ken and I felt this was the hardest move of all.  Every other move, God did it.   We felt Him in it. We knew He was in it.  There was none of that this time.  There is no Yeah God did it!   There is no joy in it.  The warfare was INTENSE!   This place is a duplex so we have close neighbors in which I hear talking through the walls until midnight most nights.  I hear them walking down their hallway.  I hear them shutting doors.  Heck I even know what they are cooking.   So that means they hear us too!   We share a driveway so parking is quite difficult.  They have 3 cars.  We have 3 cars if you count Ken's work truck.  The rent is higher and we had to rent a storage unit. The refrigerator is apartment size, the stove is old despite being a new home.  Things boil on setting 1.    The home is 500 square foot smaller than what we had and now only 1 car garage vs 2.  Our garage is floor to ceiling boxes and 1 bedroom is as well.   We won't be able to host our home group anymore.   Heck, having company over might even be a challenge.  Probably 40-50% of our belongings went into storage and finding what we do need is like a needle in a haystack.  
  
I felt the Lord said this would be short-lived but we'll see.   He told me that in May when I started private chef'ing for a lady and it was short-lived.   So maybe I'm hearing, maybe I'm not.  We'll see.   It's pretty easy to second guess and doubt what God is saying when things don't line up.  

Ken is working this entire weekend to help with expenses.  The move in expense was way more than we had and all the incidentals - like having to buy a washer and dryer, a portable air conditioner, floor rugs and more.  We do not like debt but here we are.  I am trying to find some part-time remote work to help as well.   

I have to say God knew that I was breaking down on every level.  Last Saturday, the day of moving, we had a great crew helping us.  We went from 630am-630pm non stop!   And I had probably over 100 unsolicited texts and calls of people saying they were praying and having their friends pray.   For the first time in my journey with the Lord, I was almost ready to walk away.   I'm still not in a good place, but better than Saturday.   I have nothing in me.  I'm exhausted.  I'm soul tired.  I'm past the point of weary.   I am overwhelmed at the tasks before me and thankful for a few friends lending me a hand.    I am stressed about how we will manage finanically.   

I had a dream that was pretty revealing.   The dream:  Ken and I were at an abortion clinic.  I told the nurse that I was afraid of the procedure and she said, I'd be fine and so did Ken.  Just then the doctor yelling from the other room said hurry up and get her ready, let's get this done.  Something in my spirit (in the dream) felt off, so I changed my mind and didn't get the abortion.  I had no emotion - no happiness that I didn't abort and no happiness if I did.  Just numb and lifeless.  End of dream.      

What I feel the Lord spoke to me when I woke up was that the enemy has been working hard to get Ken and I to abort the vision because of delay after delay and nothing happening in the natural.  And the blog I wrote previously talking about surrendering the vision.  That I feel now was not from the Lord.  He does not want us to lay this down and give up on it.  But everything in our flesh is screaming why bother anymore.   I was even at the point one morning telling God "everything is futile"  Just like Solomon saying it.  What's the use.   And I said the promises in His Word must be yes and amen in eternity, not here on earth.   Do you see how "hope deferred" I am?  Ken too.  

We don't know how or when God will do it, but He is asking us to trust and hold on and still believe.    

I know there are people way worse off than we are and I have been expressing my gratitude in between tears.  And maybe I sound like I'm complaining....but that's sadly where I am right now.  When you go through a very long and never ending season of pain, sleepless nights, lack, hope deferred and more, you'll understand that this is completely normal.    I'm sure I'll come through..... but sometimes it's a process.  

Doing my best to praise Him.... Here's a song that resonates all too well - Shackles!  https://youtu.be/V7eZD3TKn_M?feature=shared
 

"Shackles (Praise You)"

[Warryn Campbell:]
Whew, it sure is hot out here, you know
I don't mind, though
I'm just glad to be free, you know what I'm saying?
Uh

[Mary Mary (Warryn Campbell):]
Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise You (What you wanna do?)
I just wanna praise You (Yeah, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (Feel me?)
And I'm gonna praise You (What you gon' do?)
I'm gonna praise You

[Erica:]
In the corners of my mind, I just can't seem to find
A reason to believe that I can break free
'Cause you see, I have been
Down for so long, feel like all hope was gone
But as I lift my hands, I understand
That I should praise You through my circumstance

[Mary Mary:]
Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance (So I can dance)
I just wanna praise You (Just wanna praise You)
I just wanna praise You (Just wanna praise You)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (I can lift my hands)
And I'm gonna praise You
I'm gonna praise You

[Tina:]
Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gon' lose my mind
But, I know You wanna see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need You to lift this load
'Cause I can't take it no more

[Mary Mary:]
Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance (So I can dance)
I just wanna praise You (Woo)
I just wanna praise You (Yeah, hey)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (Woo, yeah-yeah)
And I'm gonna praise You (I'm gonna)
I'm gonna praise You (I'm gonna, I'm gonna praise You)

Been through the fire and the rain
Bound in every kind of way
But God has broken every chain
So let me go right now

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance (So I can dance y'all)
I just wanna praise You (Ooh)
I just wanna praise You (I wanna praise You)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (I can lift my hands)
And I'm gonna praise You (Praise You)
I'm gonna praise You (Praise You, praise You, yeah)

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance ('Cause I just wanna)
I just wanna praise You ('Cause I just wanna)
I just wanna praise You (Yeah, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (I can lift my hands)
And I'm gonna praise You (Praise You)
I'm gonna praise You (Yeah, come on, dance with me)

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance (I just wanna praise You)
I just wanna praise You ('Cause I'm free tonight)
I just wanna praise You (Yes, I'm free, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (I can lift my hands)
And I'm gonna praise You (Yeah)
I'm gonna praise You (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

[Warryn Campbell (Mary Mary):]
Take 'em off, take 'em off
What you gonna do?
Yeah, yeah
(You broke the chains now I can lift my hands)
Broke all the chains 
(And I'm gonna praise You)
What you gonna do?
(I'm gonna praise You)
What you gonna do?

A friend sent this video to me - this verse Malachi 4:2 is the very first verse God gave me in 2002....  and hoping now that this prophetic word is legit for August - 

If you feel led to pray, please pray for our hearts.  Pray for provision to come forth - open door for me to have some remote work that pays well.   Pray for strength and energy for both of us.  We are completely wiped out.   Please pray for sleep - neither one of us really getting much.   Please pray for healing - pain levels extreme - Ken too!   Thank you! 

Hugs, love and prayers.

Ken & Michele Cole 

michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:

     Ken & Michele Cole, 215 Tyra Lea Lane, Unit A, Hamilton, MT 59840  (preferable as the options below will tax us) 

     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through 

Paypal - paypal.me/micheleacole 

Venmo- @Michele-Cole-20

Cashapp - cash.app/$micheleacole2019     

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, 103 Geneva Ave, Hamilton, MT 59840

     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.

     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212

     Phone 913 310 0279

     www.thesignatry,com

     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.   








 

Friday, August 1, 2025

BREAKDOWNS INTO BREAKTHROUGHS


 Welp!    

Yesterday the Lord told me, "You need only be still".   I looked that up in the Bible and found it in Exodus 14:14 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

Yesterday we looked at a home that would meet our needs, was in a great location and neighborhood and when I walked in I felt the Lord in it.   I even found out some friends of ours used to rent it and told us it was an amazing home.   

There were multiple applicants on this home.  The management company told us today that we did NOT get it because someone else scored higher.   They said our "score" was exemplary.   The only score they could have scored higher would be income.   Our credit scores are 800 - our background and references came back immaculate!   And yet...  

I prayed yesterday that Lord if this was the place you had for us and not the destiny property, then open the door that no man can shut.   And the door was shut.   I asked Him if this wasn't it, would you please open destiny doors.   Here we are 1 ONE DAY before moving day and we have literally NO PLACE to go.     

The last blog I said we had a place to sleep but Ken and I are in unity strongly on this - we do not have any peace about it and absolutely do NOT feel led to go.   There are so many issues with that place.  And very distressing to think it's the only open crack.   The biggest issue is that we have to put $2400 down and NO proration if we find something else in a day or two.  We do not have extra cash lying around!   We would have to rent 3 storage units on top of that - and have to put our freezers and refrigerator a mile down the road.  There is no shower.  There is no wifi (which I use to find work, work on my books etc), we'd have to park 2 cars in another location so I would have no way to get to my car during the day.   We would have no living room space as boxes would have to be stacked there that can't go to storage. We'd have no kitchen table so we'd have to eat on our laps!   Do you see the dilemma!   Oh maybe I'm just whining.  But would this work for you?  Be honest! 

I literally have had just an hour or two sleep a night for the past few weeks.  Pain levels have been at an all time high - of course STRESS does that to you!    Who's stressed??@$%^&

We are going to look at 1 other place today - it still is not ideal for us and probably would require a storage unit on top of the rent which is more than we pay now.   It's clean however. So that's a plus. I definitely need  God to open a door for income!  There is also not much parking as a duplex so not sure what we will do there.  I don't know if we can fit our two cars & Ken's work truck?  We'd sell one but both are pretty much  need both in case one breaks down again - what we really need is 1 newer reliable vehicle and sell these!    And we will have to find a way to buy a washer and dryer.  


I am still believing though through many tears and an occasional screams that God is either going to open destiny doors for us today (before we start the actual move into where tomorrow?) or that He opens the place we looked at yesterday - that He would not allow MAN to shut that door!  This is the only 1 we have peace about!  

We need God's PEACE & PROVISION!! 

To be continued..............


Hugs, love and prayers.

Ken & Michele Cole 

michele@wantinsight.com

Here are ways you can give if you feel led:

1.  Non tax deductible donations can be made to:

     Ken & Michele Cole, 103 Geneva Ave, Hamilton, MT 59840  (preferable as the options below will tax us) 

     This is the only way currently we can use funds for our personal needs at this time.  or through 

Paypal - paypal.me/micheleacole 

Venmo- @Michele-Cole-20

Cashapp - cash.app/$micheleacole2019     

2.  Tax deductible options:

     Checks payable to Sonlit Fields, 103 Geneva Ave, Hamilton, MT 59840

     This goes into our ministry account to be used for outreach and saving towards our vision.

     Donor Fund - The Signatry - Ken & Michele Cole - listed under Want InSight Fund.

     7171 W 95th Street, Suite 501, Overland Park, KS 66212

     Phone 913 310 0279

     www.thesignatry,com

     This is an option to keep gifts anonymous - again for outreach and savings toward our vision.


Vision

God has given us a vision to build a retreat property along with ministry equipping center.  

The retreat portion of our ministry is to provide a safe place for pastors, lay leaders & other ministry folks to come and be refreshed & encouraged through prophetic ministry (if wanted).  We will offer private cabins with kitchens & full bathrooms, and plenty of places to roam on the property to get quiet with the Lord. 

We will offer other specialty retreats - marriage, healing, prophetic teaching & activating people into the world & health and wellness retreats and more.  

The Lord has graced us with the desire to come alongside the Church - to bring healing, deliverance & freedom to new/newer believers.  We are not wanting to replace their church, but better help them be ready to serve in their church. 

In our community building - we will eventually have a 24/7 prayer room, healing & prophetic rooms and a place for community worship services for those on the property.  

Our passion is to minister to a lost & hurting world.   To equip the saints to do the same and to be a blessing to our community and surrounding areas.  Our hopes are that we can pour out God's love in a mighty way to bring more and more souls into the Kingdom, get them discipled, called into their purpose & destiny and released to do God's business!!!!  We also have a passion to give generously to help those in need and to help others launch into their God given destinies.   

   

 

Wednesday, July 30, 2025

The Sacrifice of the Vision!

Have you ever had to give up something in your life?   What did that feel like? 
How did you respond to the Lord when He asked you to? 

Years ago, I read a book by Os Hillman called The Upside of Adversity.  It was a leadership book based on the life of Joseph.   I applied the information in that book to my life at that time.  But over the last months, the Lord has been bringing the pages of the book back into memory.   This past week, in my quiet time, and in different ways, the Lord has been speaking to me about Abraham and Isaac and the willingness to sacrifice the vision He has given us.  One of the mentions in the book is about giving the "vision" back to God.   And after going through the varying "tests" the Lord has, He will either give it back to you or give you a new vision.   

Let's read about Abraham and Issac here.  


Genesis 22:1-19 ESV 
The Sacrifice of Isaac

22 After these things God tested Abraham and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.” So Abraham rose early in the morning, saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and his son Isaac. And he cut the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place of which God had told him. On the third day Abraham lifted up his eyes and saw the place from afar. Then Abraham said to his young men, “Stay here with the donkey; I and the boy[a] will go over there and worship and come again to you.” And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac his son. And he took in his hand the fire and the knife. So they went both of them together. And Isaac said to his father Abraham, “My father!” And he said, “Here I am, my son.” He said, “Behold, the fire and the wood, but where is the lamb for a burnt offering?” Abraham said, “God will provide for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son.” So they went both of them together.
When they came to the place of which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there and laid the wood in order and bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son.11 But the angel of the Lord called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” 12 He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.” 13 And Abraham lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, behind him was a ram, caught in a thicket by his horns. And Abraham went and took the ram and offered it up as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called the name of that place, “The Lord will provide”; as it is said to this day, “On the mount of the Lord it shall be provided.”
15 And the angel of the Lord called to Abraham a second time from heaven 16 and said, “By myself I have sworn, declares the Lord, because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17 I will surely bless you, and I will surely multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and as the sand that is on the seashore. And your offspring shall possess the gate of his[d] enemies, 18 and in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.” 19 So Abraham returned to his young men, and they arose and went together to Beersheba. And Abraham lived at Beersheba.

This week has been harrowing with our move now only 3 days away.  We don't really have a place to go YET..... we do have a place we can land to sleep (and it will cost us more than what we pay now)  It is not something we can stay at for any length of time and even a few days would be distressing.  But it's "provision" for sleep which we are thankful.  We have reserved 3 storage units (not all together) and may need more if available as ALL of our belongings will have to go into them if this is our only option.  We have a friend that will let us plug our freezers in her garage.    This week has been filled with peace and anxiety and stress and fear and confidence in God and trust and hope and hopelessness.   The emotions are all over the place.  But God! We are trusting YOU despite everything we are up against! 

I can't say that the Lord has spoken to me/us about giving up the vision specifically, however, that is where I am at.  I don't know what Ken is thinking. (Oh and today is his birthday!)   We are contending... but yet today I am saying Lord, I leave this vision at your feet - at the altar.  If you want to take it from us, then so be it!   If you want us to fulfill all you have spoken to us over the years, so be it.   All I ask Lord, is that you provide a suitable place for us to live.  And even that I am surrendering though extremely difficult.  

The other thing the Lord is speaking to me is that we are fast approaching our "Red Sea" moment.   The enemy is barreling down on us and in the natural there is no way of escape.  There is no back up plan.  There is no provision of housing to meet our needs.  

In moments, where my faith is stronger, I can't imagine that God brought us this far to leave us - to fail us - to not do what He has promised.   He is a faithful God.  Even when our faith is floundering.   He is a good God even when we can't see what He's doing.    But today, I say to you - I am leaving the vision at the altar.  I am sacrificing all that God has spoken, even my healing and saying YOUR WILL BE DONE LORD!    I've been here before but I'm doing it once again.  And in 3 days we will see what the Lord's plan is.  

And as I close, the Lord is speaking to me... 
I AM THE SAME GOD AS ABRAHAM.  I HAVEN'T CHANGED!  THE SACRIFICIAL LAMB WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU. 

To be continued.........

 

Sunday, July 27, 2025

Now or Never.... Will He or Won't He?

 James 1:12 Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him! 




In 6 days we will be moving.  We are thankful for a friend who has loaned us a 27' snowmobile trailer to use.  And a co-worker of Ken's who will bring his trailer as well.   We are thankful we have 5-6 men to help with the heavy stuff and a few woman to help with the rest.     We are thankful that we have some friends that came Saturday to do some of the final big packing and start on the cleaning of the home.  

We are thankful that God is keeping doors shut.  That sounds awful.  But I feel it's His grace and mercy for us so we don't misstep.    There is absolutely nothing for us at this point that will meet our needs or budget.  I've said that before.    

God is not looking at our budget.  He's trying and testing our faith.   Both Ken and I feel that He is going to open the door to our destiny.  And if He doesn't, then we trust the outcome!   We are both in a place - not sure if God or not - but that it's either now or never.  He either will do it now or He won't.   And if He doesn't, I don't know what our next steps will be.   I don't know much these days.  So easy to second guess when nothing in the natural speaks otherwise.   When everything is completely opposite of the promises.   And yet, that's when it seems God shows up.  

It has been nothing less than intense.  Walking in faith against the grain is the hardest thing to go through.    After 7 years of being headache/migraine free, I am now having them daily.  Sleep is almost non-existent.  Pain levels in every area of my body are still more than I can bear.  I honestly don't know I get through each day, except God's grace.    God's Word says He is Jehovah Rapha - the God who heals.   With only 6 days to go, we are calling on Jehovah Jireh to provide.  We are calling on the God in the Bible that is faithful.   His promises are yes and amen.   Trusting that!   

A few weeks ago the Lord told me to look up a song - Wash over Me by Brave.  I'd never heard of it or the group.  Didn't even know if it was Christian.   The words pierced my soul and I've been playing on repeat ever since... almost non-stop.  This is my cry, my prayer, my hope!  

https://youtu.be/HTycDEkuId4?feature=shared

Wash Over Me
Brave Worship
My strength is next to none 
I don't even have a song 
But You're faithful 
My spirit's battle-worn 
My heart is bruised and torn 
And I need You

You say You'll fight for me 
I don't have to do a thing 
Just stay still, I'll stay still 
I know Your victory 
Doesn't depend on me 
I'll stay still, I'll stay still

Come and wash over me 
Come and wash over me

My refuge in the night 
My only source of life 
You're able 
Open the floodgates now 
And fill me with Your power 
I need You, oh how I need You 
Oh oh oh

You say You'll fight for me 
I don't have to do a thing 
Just stay still, I'll stay still 
I know Your victory 
Doesn't depend on me 
I'll stay still, I'll stay still

Come and wash over me 
Come and wash over me

Jesus, wash over me 
Come and wash over me

Like only You can do 
Oh Jesus 
You're the One who refreshes my life 
You're the One, You're the One 
Oh we come to You for rest tonight 
Oh we come to You 
Oh we come to You and You give us rest 
Yes You do, Yes You do

Wave after wave 
Wave after wave 
Refreshing 
Reviving 
You come in wave after wave 
Wave after wave 
Renewing 
Restoring

You come in wave after wave 
Wave after wave 
Refreshing 
Reviving 
You come in wave after wave 
Wave after wave 
Renewing 
(Yes, You are) 
Restoring

Refreshing, reviving, renewing, restoring 
Refreshing, reviving, renewing, restoring

Wash over me 
Oh, Wash over me 
Jesus, wash over me 
Come and wash over me

You say You'll fight for me 
Don't have to do a thing 
Just stay still, I'll stay still 
I know Your victory 
Doesn't depend on me 
I'll stay still, I'll stay still

Just come and wash over me 
Come and wash over me 
Jesus, wash over me 
Come and wash over me


What's Next?

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